Random day like any other day...So skip skip skip....until FPS. Ours was damn screwed, 204's one is lol with Yong Kiat. 202's one with Vivian is...well at least the “大家好，我是周杰伦。” part got my attention. I was like...wth?! 201's one totally pwn you. Starfishes dominate the world. Starfishes pwn you. Muahaha. And seriously the graphics were awesome. Must be Derek's uber nice drawing and Yuan Han's laptop with Flash that made it.

Then French Fair. Slacked quite a lot, made waffles, was so busy eating that I never realised I was full until the 3rd or 4th serving I've got. I was like eating and eating and eating because the Hazelnut Spread was simply wonderful. Heh still full (hence the long long time I take to finish my dinner).

Biology quiz+Mouse dissection+Physics test. I'm officially screwed, sighs.

Peer pressure huh.

Perhaps I am getting it. Why oh why, last time it's by a mere 1 mark, now it's 3. Last time everything was alright, now it's all fucking screwed up. Me myself especially. When I first came to NUSH, I guess I was completely different compared to now. All screamy, random, enthu (at the wrong time and wrong reason), retarded perhaps. Plus, two stupid attitudes which looks at people the wrong way. A stupid attitude which thinks they are bad and realised they are good (and it's all too late once more), and another one which thinks that she is good and realised she totally rocks (and screw her, how much more can she suck?)

Why oh why people must be happy, why oh why can't people be depressive. I cannot blame them, I was the one with too little expectations. I can blame myself, I know it all starts with me, ends at nowhere, for I'm eternally cursed. Cursed to be a fucking screwed up person without a fucking sensible mind that fucking functions like a normal human brain in the normal world. Do I look like I care YES I fucking care about it but who bothers? It's all too late isn't it. What they expect of me (and everyone), I tried to be. What they don't expect (or don't want) of me (and everyone), I tried not to be. Either they do not bother or I never change at all. Which on both cases, is bad.

Seriously I phail. I phailed so badly, even that is also screwed up. It's time for me to go back to when I was 3 and start to learn how to walk properly. Screw. (I don't care how I can do it, but screw.)

I love Slipknot. Because Slipknot is one of the few few few bands that can fucking scream properly.

I pierced my ears. And then I'm so stupid to get the studs out. Now I can't get the hole on the other side (I can see it in front, I can't seem to get the hole behind). Which means I screwed it up. I'M SUPPOSED TO LET THE STUDS STAY AND THEN THE HOLES WILL SETTLE! NOW I SCREWED IT!

Argh look here, there's a girl freaking out like siao.

"When I'm Gone", "Mockingbird" by Eminem and "Wait For You" by Elliot Yamin is so so so nice. "Soulmate" by Natasha Bedingfield too. Thanks Ian for recommending these songs to me! Trish, I shall listen to Kelly Clarkson when Spencer gets the download links >.<

Shall post the lyrics and song later on.

Today...also quite a typical day.

Ms Chua did not come to school today ): so we were given a worksheet to do. Gahness, missed break because of that. But the kind kind Yu Jia helped me and Trish get a 豆沙包 and 叉烧包 (since there is no 莲蓉包=.=.

Next was English. Listened to the songs "When I'm Gone" by Eminem. Though I never really listen to rap, the lyrics still makes me cry (especially the chorus).

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

Lunch. Slacked around, and Vivian go copy me and eat the 白鸡饭=.= stupid larh. But never mind, it is nice and can sustain me the whole day, good:) Surprisingly did not sleep in Math class, as what had almost happened in Physics >.< Then Geography elective. At first was very reluctant to go for it (like Lester), but realised the lesson is quite meaningful (more like your mind can relax more). Ha.

TRACK! So what we did...

1. Warm up (1 round+stretching)
2. Girls 12 rounds, Boys forgot liao (sorry)
3. Circuit training (6 items)
4. Fun Log Roll (keep shouting "Jiayou" and "Sorry" to those who are rolling and those who are rolled on by me respectively)
5. Boys lost for above item, do a forfeit (Supposed to to chicken dance, in the end sing the "20 cent coin" song).
6. Uber fast cooldown, dismissed.

Janice has this amazing determination and stamina. Must learn from her :) And Hubert ran 25 rounds (applause). Happy because I found someone (Rachael of 106) to talk to :) She's a nice person, only she's very quiet. Hehe ^^

As for the rest of the day, shall record it in my mind :). Thanks again!

BTW before I forget, I got 20 marks for AMC 8 (ONE more stupid freaking mark to distinction!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). Yan Sheng got full marks. Okay although feel like bashing him=.=, but still...Congratulations Yan Sheng! (In fact he does not need it at all, he getting full marks is common sense)

*swears randomly for losing that critical mark*

Yes yes I am now addicted to Slipknot. Anyone has songs by Slipknot? Can send me? Gah gah gah >.<

Love love love the juniors in 107! Hehe =D. Thought I would rather know my 106 juniors, ended up in another class. Never mind, they still rock xD since they are random and crap like we bunch of people ^.^

BitTorrent sucks. Music rocks.

Someone please get me Slipknot?

These days my dreams are getting more and more into the topic. It seems like my brain still wants to bring me to somewhere good even when I'm sleeping. Lol.

Those dreams, I wonder, do you have them too? Those dreams, I wonder, did you send them to me? If yes, then thanks for them; if no, I hope the dreams will become true one day.

Just because Joel and Joanne sounds alike, Ms Lee appointed me as the Faraday Year 2 female rep. Gahness, I would rather join cheerleading.

I regret not taking down the day he played the piece for me.
Nothing much happened.
Chinese skit was screwed.
I don't feel like eating my dinner.
I love my new jacket.

The end.

Time is fast. 21 days had passed.

Went to Suntec City Mall, it's hellishly big, my mum and I almost got lost as we find our way back (to my dad). I got 2 jackets, both from $39 each to $13 each. Woohoo.

My legs suffered so much, but I make sure they are going for Track today. I don't care, I know I have to run.

Suddenly I feel screwed up. The Geography elective has like 2 vacancies and I actually took one without thinking. Now I can't unselect it. Damns. But to think of it, it may be good. To have a Geog core module and a Geog elective module is not good at all. I think. >.<

The walk was much much much more fun than I expected. I imagined the people there to be...More like I thought the response would not be that good but it turned out well. (Let's type in Chinese, shall we?)

今天的活动蛮有趣的，比我想象中好得多了。还以为敲了门之后在跟他们说话会很可怕，没想到真正做的时候却很得心应手。收到的东西还蛮多的，报纸、衣物、收音机等等等，好多种啊。

I must be bored.

The wishlist I have right now is more of like...what albums I haven't bought yet=.='. So...yeah making a new one...here first.

1) Hair to reach waist length by end of June (or September if my hair really grows that slow)
2) 4.0++ CAP this semester
3) Be at least 165cm...by mid Year 3 bah. (Screw the school measurement thingy, and growth hormones had better wake up for me or else)
4) Run like siao and try to acheive below 5 minutes for 1.5km endurance (I got 7 minutes+, Mr Foo says that national standards, below 5 minutes).
5) iPod iPod.

Pretty normal, except still pissed with myself for the fact that I tried my best not to emo and failed. Must be the violent me surfacing up again (Niki in Heroes!!! Sorry Heroes is now stuck in me).

Anyways nothing much happened, only that Track is...finally serious. Did warmup, drills, assessment test=o which has 1.5km as the last item. Legs died-ed, Mr Foo says today is only 25% of total effects, thus I have death awaiting me every Friday.

Yay.

I'm perhaps wondering what those had meant.

And the dream. I had a dream. Of something that happened to me. It was perhaps significant.

I hope that scene would become familiar on my mind once again.

EDIT at 9.50pm: I feel sian. Very sian. Generally the end of lessons for me at 12pm is like...weird. Probably I should have signed up for the Geography elective. But who cares.

Am watching Heroes episode 8 of season 2 now! Yay 3 more episodes to the end.

And I still feel like flying.

The songs which I like most in the 黄真伊 OST.



如果我有心愿，让我遇到之间离开

或许在小胡同里擦肩而过

能让我先逃避

真的要遇见，不要让我见到你

让我的双眼失去光明

在短暂的时间里感受一切

不要让我记住你没有的容颜

看到了擦肩而过的你

让我偶尔想起你

伤痛和以前不一样

抛弃了我，你应该幸福呀

偶尔想起你，没来的及跟你说的话

希望你能幸福

如果我有等待，愿世界没有眼泪

偶遇中能让我遇到你

眼泪不要遮盖你的面容

我看到了擦肩而过的你

偶尔让我想起了你

但心痛的感觉和以前不太一样

把我抛弃你应该幸福才对呀

偶尔想起你，没有来的及对你说的话

希望你能幸福




在这么远的地方了 为什么心还是不变
应该把又疼又生病了的思念忘掉会好点...
无数次回看 为什么我离开了

越打空荡荡的胸 越忍住流下的眼泪
爱情和记忆一起流下来

连一丝的会回来的约定也没有留下
怕你象一天一样等数千个夜晚
爱情没了 把记忆抹掉 安心的活吧
虽然我不在身边

如果知道离别就不会跟你见面了
为什么那么容易靠近的爱情却如此疼痛

冷静的步伐在不经意间停留在我的心里
象瞬间一样的那么多的时间
连爱情,记忆都觉得惋惜

我把痛楚和眼泪吞掉
把你当作没有过的人
再见也会装做不认识

把爱你是你这种不在心里的话说了
梦里我再这么说也不要相信
关于你的记忆,那手感都记不起了
但为什么还是掉眼泪,又掉眼泪..




爱 一晃眼 在把握以外
爱 一个人 不要等待
伤和痛 我也依然存在
好像解语花 美丽 悲哀

开了会谢 谢了会开
我的眼泪 没有失败
去了又来 来了又去
我的微笑 只有期待

爱 一晃眼 思念直到末来
伤和痛 我会忽然明白
好像解语花 高贵 无奈

开了会谢 谢了会开
我的眼泪 没有失败
去了又来 来了又去
我的微笑 只有期待

爱 一晃眼 思念直到末来




每天都想着你
追忆着过去
闭上眼睛轻呼你的名字，仿佛就在身旁
是你让我笑
还记得吗？凄美的
那个季节没有完成的我们的爱情

你看，我把思念绣在花瓣上
你看，在某个美丽的春天它会飘扬
那是无法忘记你而飘忽的我的心
你还记得吗？凄美的
那个季节里没有完成的我们的爱情

你看，我用眼泪在天空里作诗
你看，若在某个清凉的夏天里下雨
那是因为思念你而放声痛哭的我的心

别为我难过

你看，我的爱染红了叶瓣
你看，若在某个干涩的秋天叶子红了
那是因为思念你而受伤的我的心

你看，我把问好载在风里
你看，若在某个寒冷的冬天
那是在某个地方对你说的我很好的寒暄




痛苦得铭记着
哄我睡觉的你那温柔的手
真的好疲惫呀
装着已忘记你的生活
记忆真是讨厌
都说了没事了
可泪每天还是像雨一样继续流淌
只有你不知道吧
这些年孤独生活的我
因为无法忍受对你的思念
装着认输痛哭的我
你会想起吗
非常思念说好是短暂别离的你

There. All done. These songs have been playing in repeat on my player.

It has to rain at no time but now. Cool.

So we have this god dam rain which started just a few minutes ago before school ends.

Crap.

Trish is with me now, writing her fanfic. Sighs. And I can actually walk home in rain (I would love to) but I have this god damn laptop!!! %*&%))P%^#%@%$&)

And so...the rain became bigger instead. Wow. WOW.

Just now thought it was english class, ended up it was chinese first. So I was like...walk in to 206, realised chinese teacher was already inside there, tried to find my bag but was afraid that I disturb the class, so never really find it carefully.

In the end the bag was on the floor. Practically some bastard threw it there and made me worry for an hour and a half. Like what rubbish. Worse still, I heard the news from Amanda that YS is now taking his math class. Year 4 math class. $*&^.

Holy shit.

小时候的回忆：泡泡。
小时候看泡泡，天真的我看见的，是开心、是欢笑、是喜悦。因为泡泡在空中飘啊飘的，好美丽。
长大时看泡泡，忧郁的我看见的，是幻觉、是错觉、是悲伤。因为泡泡在空中似希望，但也似绝望。似希望是因为它在阳光的照射下，五颜六色的、在风中，轻轻的漂浮，自由自在、无忧无虑。似绝望是因为这希望总在等待我们去掌握它，但当我们鼓起勇气，伸出双手去迎接这希望时，

泡泡破了。不见了。散了。

看起来完美的一切，原来都是南柯一梦罢了。

如果你能是我的初恋，那该多好。如果我能再乐观一点，那该多好。
最大的傻瓜莫过于坠入爱河的人，不是吗?
用心感受着你的笑容，用心感受着你的幽默，用心感受着你，你的一切。
我很傻对吗？我听起来很傻对吗？你怎么会喜欢上我这种傻瓜啊？ >.<

可见我的脑袋还空闲得很。

Nothing much significant today.
The music textbook is really heavy.
I am still not used to the keyboard.

Being the role as a student in school is tiring. Being the role as a daughter at home is tiring. Being a person itself is tiring, too.
Yet we never seem to get tired about it at all. We are not tired of being tired.
Oh no that contradicts! =oo

Sorry I'm random. >.<

I thought since when is the stylus of HP Tablet PC that hard to use, but I just experienced it.

It's really weird. It's like...if you want to point at some stuff..you must click way above it, not on it. Damns weird stylus.

And I'm still not used to the keyboard. It's really hard, makes playing o2jam hard T.T but I can press all keys at the same time! Yahoo!

EDIT (at 2.03pm): I am scared. Literally scared. Those words she said, those months of agony, is all flashing back to me. Please, tell me there's nothing wrong with you. Please. I don't wish to see you in that way again. I beg you. Please.

I feel like flying.

I officialy changed my laptop to HP Tablet PC. >.< The resolution of it is lovely. 1280*800. Windows Vista is darn cool, everything is so nice. Only thing I hate is the keyboard. So hard, when playing o2jam must adapt to this darn hard keyboard. T.T

Feelings. Great feelings.
Had not slept since 2am.
I feel like changing hairstyle, but no ideas.
I don't like exams.
I want to be obsessed with o2jam like last year.
I am random.
There.

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Now playing on iTunes: 최혜진 - 해어화 (최혜진)
via FoxyTunes

Yes yes I feel sleepy. School ends at 1.30pm and I can only get home at 8.10pm. Sighs.
Anyways the principal address was...interesting and sweet. To express your love using 5-cent coins. Lolz. Let's see...a lesson-less Wednesday huh.

9am: Assembly.
9.30am: Break.
10am: ACE lessons--> Sianned out.
11am: Break again.
12pm: AXIS talk. Only liked the one in Japan and the cat desktop Dr Seah has.
1.30pm: Released.

Gahs.

Went to IMM for ice-cream, then JE for neoprints, then Jurong Point for crapping. Stayed there till around 6.30pm while the rest went home at 4pm. Reached downstairs of my block at 7.30pm, waited 40 minutes for my parents.

Blahs.

Someone who's height and weight conscious like me would feel very pathetic.
I actually shrunk.
Damn.
And with my height and weight, I feel overweight.

Anyways for PE 206 trashed 207=), because my class guys were simply awesome, they were always in the lead:). Only thing is I seem to not contribute a lot. (the worries of being a girl: too "kind" to snatch the ball) Who cares, the game still rocks.

“黄真伊” is a really sad Korean series, especially till the part when her first love died because of a fever. I have it's OST, I told my mum about it, she plays everyday, makes me feel emo in turn.
I often wanted to be someone great. I often wanted to be a great composer like Chopin. I wanted to be a great scientist like Einstein. I wanted to be someone who can accomplish big things. And then I realise I can't. I don't have the ability, I don't have the motivation, I'm just not suited to be that kind of person. And this makes me hate myself. I hate myself for wasting my life away on my laptop, I hate myself for not using all this time wisely on Science and Math, or even anything.

I wanted to be smarter than YS, yet I'm not doing anything. At all. And I keep complaining about it when the fault is with me. I always try to push the blame to not having a good foundation in primary school, but is that really so?

I really detest myself, the way I behave sometimes.

And, I sense, something wrong, with her. (No not referring to anyone in my school).

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Now playing on iTunes: Linkin Park - Figure.09
via FoxyTunes

My mum kidnapped my dolphin TT.TT
Shouldn't have shown it to her!
Now she's hugging it to sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S.: Unless you have the dolphin, you won't get what I mean, so don't bother.
*screams frantically*
I always hug it to sleep...I can only sleep with it...now my mum is hugging it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm trying my best not to be emo, my mum is making me emo again. With her damn old songs. And kidnapping my dolphin. Again.

Without that nice dolphin to hug I can't sleep. And I have lessons tomorrow. Wah what's wrong with me =(

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Now playing on iTunes: Linkin Park - Part Of Me
via FoxyTunes

Happy happy happy! =D

So now...I heard that Bryan is joining Track, Yichen seems interested=D. Yay good good good, someone can run with me together liao. ><

Still feeling bored, and I shall scream at the timetable...again.

201 and 206 had gotten it. Tomorrow. And all Tuesdays thereafter. 4.5 hours of lessons, without break at all. My mum is helping me predict that I am so going to die.

Gahs. So many new songs to download for o2jam. Tiring sia, keep downloading, extracting...Then downloading .rar files using download managers always screw up, managed to make it become 10++kb only. Then tell me file corrupted. =.=

"I'm not afraid about anything, I'm only afraid that I had not loved you enough."

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Now playing on iTunes: Linkin Park - In The End
via FoxyTunes

The pieces of memories I have made it a wonderful year, I must admit.
Chopin may have been quite lonely. I even start to wonder whether he had a nervous breakdown before.
Damns I have finally reached the end of the game "Paper Mario" which means I would be more bored than ever. Sighs.
Before I forget...
Who said that cats are meant to be scared away?!?!?!?!?! You evil...
I literally hug the "Music Appreciation" book to sleep this afternoon xD. With something else=D.
I'm feeling weird all over. The timetable is screwed up!!! Very!

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Now playing on iTunes: Robert Stahlbrand - Chopin - Op.28 no.06, Prelude in B-minor
via FoxyTunes

Yes end of orientation. Thank god I don't have to feel guilty for slacking again.
But please stop saying that he's very "失败". You should thank god that I did not strangle you people damn it. You all never mention him at all, so how can it be counted?!

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Now playing on iTunes: Robert Stahlbrand - Chopin - Op.28 no.01, Prelude in C major
via FoxyTunes

It's just...atrocious. I mean my mum, not the timetable.
I'm so pissed off to the top.

Thank god I bought this "Cat Naps" 2008 calender that shows over 300 kittens sleeping=D.

First and foremost, happy new year=)
Hmm, nothing much for orientation, seeing my friends back is of course the best part. Talked about timetable, school creed etc. The mass dance this year...well it's much better than last year for me. Probably the dance steps are easier, or I concentrated better.
What I'm feeling now:

Why can't they just leave us alone for once?! Is it even our fault that we are together?

Sighs. T.T
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Now playing on iTunes: 최혜진 - 해어화 (최혜진)
via FoxyTunes

Writing my life story with my blood and tears

* Name: Tan Yong Ying
* School: NUS High School of Math & Science
* Class: M07106, M08206, M09304
* House: Faraday

Random day like any other day...So skip skip skip....until FPS. Ours was damn screwed, 204's one is lol with Yong Kiat. 202's one with Vivian is...well at least the “大家好，我是周杰伦。” part got my attention. I was like...wth?! 201's one totally pwn you. Starfishes dominate the world. Starfishes pwn you. Muahaha. And seriously the graphics were awesome. Must be Derek's uber nice drawing and Yuan Han's laptop with Flash that made it.

Then French Fair. Slacked quite a lot, made waffles, was so busy eating that I never realised I was full until the 3rd or 4th serving I've got. I was like eating and eating and eating because the Hazelnut Spread was simply wonderful. Heh still full (hence the long long time I take to finish my dinner).

Biology quiz+Mouse dissection+Physics test. I'm officially screwed, sighs.

Peer pressure huh.

Perhaps I am getting it. Why oh why, last time it's by a mere 1 mark, now it's 3. Last time everything was alright, now it's all fucking screwed up. Me myself especially. When I first came to NUSH, I guess I was completely different compared to now. All screamy, random, enthu (at the wrong time and wrong reason), retarded perhaps. Plus, two stupid attitudes which looks at people the wrong way. A stupid attitude which thinks they are bad and realised they are good (and it's all too late once more), and another one which thinks that she is good and realised she totally rocks (and screw her, how much more can she suck?)

Why oh why people must be happy, why oh why can't people be depressive. I cannot blame them, I was the one with too little expectations. I can blame myself, I know it all starts with me, ends at nowhere, for I'm eternally cursed. Cursed to be a fucking screwed up person without a fucking sensible mind that fucking functions like a normal human brain in the normal world. Do I look like I care YES I fucking care about it but who bothers? It's all too late isn't it. What they expect of me (and everyone), I tried to be. What they don't expect (or don't want) of me (and everyone), I tried not to be. Either they do not bother or I never change at all. Which on both cases, is bad.

Seriously I phail. I phailed so badly, even that is also screwed up. It's time for me to go back to when I was 3 and start to learn how to walk properly. Screw. (I don't care how I can do it, but screw.)

I love Slipknot. Because Slipknot is one of the few few few bands that can fucking scream properly.

I pierced my ears. And then I'm so stupid to get the studs out. Now I can't get the hole on the other side (I can see it in front, I can't seem to get the hole behind). Which means I screwed it up. I'M SUPPOSED TO LET THE STUDS STAY AND THEN THE HOLES WILL SETTLE! NOW I SCREWED IT!

Argh look here, there's a girl freaking out like siao.

"When I'm Gone", "Mockingbird" by Eminem and "Wait For You" by Elliot Yamin is so so so nice. "Soulmate" by Natasha Bedingfield too. Thanks Ian for recommending these songs to me! Trish, I shall listen to Kelly Clarkson when Spencer gets the download links >.<

Shall post the lyrics and song later on.

Today...also quite a typical day.

Ms Chua did not come to school today ): so we were given a worksheet to do. Gahness, missed break because of that. But the kind kind Yu Jia helped me and Trish get a 豆沙包 and 叉烧包 (since there is no 莲蓉包=.=.

Next was English. Listened to the songs "When I'm Gone" by Eminem. Though I never really listen to rap, the lyrics still makes me cry (especially the chorus).

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

Lunch. Slacked around, and Vivian go copy me and eat the 白鸡饭=.= stupid larh. But never mind, it is nice and can sustain me the whole day, good:) Surprisingly did not sleep in Math class, as what had almost happened in Physics >.< Then Geography elective. At first was very reluctant to go for it (like Lester), but realised the lesson is quite meaningful (more like your mind can relax more). Ha.

TRACK! So what we did...

1. Warm up (1 round+stretching)
2. Girls 12 rounds, Boys forgot liao (sorry)
3. Circuit training (6 items)
4. Fun Log Roll (keep shouting "Jiayou" and "Sorry" to those who are rolling and those who are rolled on by me respectively)
5. Boys lost for above item, do a forfeit (Supposed to to chicken dance, in the end sing the "20 cent coin" song).
6. Uber fast cooldown, dismissed.

Janice has this amazing determination and stamina. Must learn from her :) And Hubert ran 25 rounds (applause). Happy because I found someone (Rachael of 106) to talk to :) She's a nice person, only she's very quiet. Hehe ^^

As for the rest of the day, shall record it in my mind :). Thanks again!

BTW before I forget, I got 20 marks for AMC 8 (ONE more stupid freaking mark to distinction!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). Yan Sheng got full marks. Okay although feel like bashing him=.=, but still...Congratulations Yan Sheng! (In fact he does not need it at all, he getting full marks is common sense)

*swears randomly for losing that critical mark*

Yes yes I am now addicted to Slipknot. Anyone has songs by Slipknot? Can send me? Gah gah gah >.<

Love love love the juniors in 107! Hehe =D. Thought I would rather know my 106 juniors, ended up in another class. Never mind, they still rock xD since they are random and crap like we bunch of people ^.^

BitTorrent sucks. Music rocks.

Someone please get me Slipknot?

These days my dreams are getting more and more into the topic. It seems like my brain still wants to bring me to somewhere good even when I'm sleeping. Lol.

Those dreams, I wonder, do you have them too? Those dreams, I wonder, did you send them to me? If yes, then thanks for them; if no, I hope the dreams will become true one day.

Just because Joel and Joanne sounds alike, Ms Lee appointed me as the Faraday Year 2 female rep. Gahness, I would rather join cheerleading.

I regret not taking down the day he played the piece for me.
Nothing much happened.
Chinese skit was screwed.
I don't feel like eating my dinner.
I love my new jacket.

The end.

Time is fast. 21 days had passed.

Went to Suntec City Mall, it's hellishly big, my mum and I almost got lost as we find our way back (to my dad). I got 2 jackets, both from $39 each to $13 each. Woohoo.

My legs suffered so much, but I make sure they are going for Track today. I don't care, I know I have to run.

Suddenly I feel screwed up. The Geography elective has like 2 vacancies and I actually took one without thinking. Now I can't unselect it. Damns. But to think of it, it may be good. To have a Geog core module and a Geog elective module is not good at all. I think. >.<

The walk was much much much more fun than I expected. I imagined the people there to be...More like I thought the response would not be that good but it turned out well. (Let's type in Chinese, shall we?)

今天的活动蛮有趣的，比我想象中好得多了。还以为敲了门之后在跟他们说话会很可怕，没想到真正做的时候却很得心应手。收到的东西还蛮多的，报纸、衣物、收音机等等等，好多种啊。

I must be bored.

The wishlist I have right now is more of like...what albums I haven't bought yet=.='. So...yeah making a new one...here first.

1) Hair to reach waist length by end of June (or September if my hair really grows that slow)
2) 4.0++ CAP this semester
3) Be at least 165cm...by mid Year 3 bah. (Screw the school measurement thingy, and growth hormones had better wake up for me or else)
4) Run like siao and try to acheive below 5 minutes for 1.5km endurance (I got 7 minutes+, Mr Foo says that national standards, below 5 minutes).
5) iPod iPod.

Pretty normal, except still pissed with myself for the fact that I tried my best not to emo and failed. Must be the violent me surfacing up again (Niki in Heroes!!! Sorry Heroes is now stuck in me).

Anyways nothing much happened, only that Track is...finally serious. Did warmup, drills, assessment test=o which has 1.5km as the last item. Legs died-ed, Mr Foo says today is only 25% of total effects, thus I have death awaiting me every Friday.

Yay.

I'm perhaps wondering what those had meant.

And the dream. I had a dream. Of something that happened to me. It was perhaps significant.

I hope that scene would become familiar on my mind once again.

EDIT at 9.50pm: I feel sian. Very sian. Generally the end of lessons for me at 12pm is like...weird. Probably I should have signed up for the Geography elective. But who cares.

Am watching Heroes episode 8 of season 2 now! Yay 3 more episodes to the end.

And I still feel like flying.

The songs which I like most in the 黄真伊 OST.



如果我有心愿，让我遇到之间离开

或许在小胡同里擦肩而过

能让我先逃避

真的要遇见，不要让我见到你

让我的双眼失去光明

在短暂的时间里感受一切

不要让我记住你没有的容颜

看到了擦肩而过的你

让我偶尔想起你

伤痛和以前不一样

抛弃了我，你应该幸福呀

偶尔想起你，没来的及跟你说的话

希望你能幸福

如果我有等待，愿世界没有眼泪

偶遇中能让我遇到你

眼泪不要遮盖你的面容

我看到了擦肩而过的你

偶尔让我想起了你

但心痛的感觉和以前不太一样

把我抛弃你应该幸福才对呀

偶尔想起你，没有来的及对你说的话

希望你能幸福




在这么远的地方了 为什么心还是不变
应该把又疼又生病了的思念忘掉会好点...
无数次回看 为什么我离开了

越打空荡荡的胸 越忍住流下的眼泪
爱情和记忆一起流下来

连一丝的会回来的约定也没有留下
怕你象一天一样等数千个夜晚
爱情没了 把记忆抹掉 安心的活吧
虽然我不在身边

如果知道离别就不会跟你见面了
为什么那么容易靠近的爱情却如此疼痛

冷静的步伐在不经意间停留在我的心里
象瞬间一样的那么多的时间
连爱情,记忆都觉得惋惜

我把痛楚和眼泪吞掉
把你当作没有过的人
再见也会装做不认识

把爱你是你这种不在心里的话说了
梦里我再这么说也不要相信
关于你的记忆,那手感都记不起了
但为什么还是掉眼泪,又掉眼泪..




爱 一晃眼 在把握以外
爱 一个人 不要等待
伤和痛 我也依然存在
好像解语花 美丽 悲哀

开了会谢 谢了会开
我的眼泪 没有失败
去了又来 来了又去
我的微笑 只有期待

爱 一晃眼 思念直到末来
伤和痛 我会忽然明白
好像解语花 高贵 无奈

开了会谢 谢了会开
我的眼泪 没有失败
去了又来 来了又去
我的微笑 只有期待

爱 一晃眼 思念直到末来




每天都想着你
追忆着过去
闭上眼睛轻呼你的名字，仿佛就在身旁
是你让我笑
还记得吗？凄美的
那个季节没有完成的我们的爱情

你看，我把思念绣在花瓣上
你看，在某个美丽的春天它会飘扬
那是无法忘记你而飘忽的我的心
你还记得吗？凄美的
那个季节里没有完成的我们的爱情

你看，我用眼泪在天空里作诗
你看，若在某个清凉的夏天里下雨
那是因为思念你而放声痛哭的我的心

别为我难过

你看，我的爱染红了叶瓣
你看，若在某个干涩的秋天叶子红了
那是因为思念你而受伤的我的心

你看，我把问好载在风里
你看，若在某个寒冷的冬天
那是在某个地方对你说的我很好的寒暄




痛苦得铭记着
哄我睡觉的你那温柔的手
真的好疲惫呀
装着已忘记你的生活
记忆真是讨厌
都说了没事了
可泪每天还是像雨一样继续流淌
只有你不知道吧
这些年孤独生活的我
因为无法忍受对你的思念
装着认输痛哭的我
你会想起吗
非常思念说好是短暂别离的你

There. All done. These songs have been playing in repeat on my player.

It has to rain at no time but now. Cool.

So we have this god dam rain which started just a few minutes ago before school ends.

Crap.

Trish is with me now, writing her fanfic. Sighs. And I can actually walk home in rain (I would love to) but I have this god damn laptop!!! %*&%))P%^#%@%$&)

And so...the rain became bigger instead. Wow. WOW.

Just now thought it was english class, ended up it was chinese first. So I was like...walk in to 206, realised chinese teacher was already inside there, tried to find my bag but was afraid that I disturb the class, so never really find it carefully.

In the end the bag was on the floor. Practically some bastard threw it there and made me worry for an hour and a half. Like what rubbish. Worse still, I heard the news from Amanda that YS is now taking his math class. Year 4 math class. $*&^.

Holy shit.

小时候的回忆：泡泡。
小时候看泡泡，天真的我看见的，是开心、是欢笑、是喜悦。因为泡泡在空中飘啊飘的，好美丽。
长大时看泡泡，忧郁的我看见的，是幻觉、是错觉、是悲伤。因为泡泡在空中似希望，但也似绝望。似希望是因为它在阳光的照射下，五颜六色的、在风中，轻轻的漂浮，自由自在、无忧无虑。似绝望是因为这希望总在等待我们去掌握它，但当我们鼓起勇气，伸出双手去迎接这希望时，

泡泡破了。不见了。散了。

看起来完美的一切，原来都是南柯一梦罢了。

如果你能是我的初恋，那该多好。如果我能再乐观一点，那该多好。
最大的傻瓜莫过于坠入爱河的人，不是吗?
用心感受着你的笑容，用心感受着你的幽默，用心感受着你，你的一切。
我很傻对吗？我听起来很傻对吗？你怎么会喜欢上我这种傻瓜啊？ >.<

可见我的脑袋还空闲得很。

Nothing much significant today.
The music textbook is really heavy.
I am still not used to the keyboard.

Being the role as a student in school is tiring. Being the role as a daughter at home is tiring. Being a person itself is tiring, too.
Yet we never seem to get tired about it at all. We are not tired of being tired.
Oh no that contradicts! =oo

Sorry I'm random. >.<

I thought since when is the stylus of HP Tablet PC that hard to use, but I just experienced it.

It's really weird. It's like...if you want to point at some stuff..you must click way above it, not on it. Damns weird stylus.

And I'm still not used to the keyboard. It's really hard, makes playing o2jam hard T.T but I can press all keys at the same time! Yahoo!

EDIT (at 2.03pm): I am scared. Literally scared. Those words she said, those months of agony, is all flashing back to me. Please, tell me there's nothing wrong with you. Please. I don't wish to see you in that way again. I beg you. Please.

I feel like flying.

I officialy changed my laptop to HP Tablet PC. >.< The resolution of it is lovely. 1280*800. Windows Vista is darn cool, everything is so nice. Only thing I hate is the keyboard. So hard, when playing o2jam must adapt to this darn hard keyboard. T.T

Feelings. Great feelings.
Had not slept since 2am.
I feel like changing hairstyle, but no ideas.
I don't like exams.
I want to be obsessed with o2jam like last year.
I am random.
There.

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Now playing on iTunes: 최혜진 - 해어화 (최혜진)
via FoxyTunes

Yes yes I feel sleepy. School ends at 1.30pm and I can only get home at 8.10pm. Sighs.
Anyways the principal address was...interesting and sweet. To express your love using 5-cent coins. Lolz. Let's see...a lesson-less Wednesday huh.

9am: Assembly.
9.30am: Break.
10am: ACE lessons--> Sianned out.
11am: Break again.
12pm: AXIS talk. Only liked the one in Japan and the cat desktop Dr Seah has.
1.30pm: Released.

Gahs.

Went to IMM for ice-cream, then JE for neoprints, then Jurong Point for crapping. Stayed there till around 6.30pm while the rest went home at 4pm. Reached downstairs of my block at 7.30pm, waited 40 minutes for my parents.

Blahs.

Someone who's height and weight conscious like me would feel very pathetic.
I actually shrunk.
Damn.
And with my height and weight, I feel overweight.

Anyways for PE 206 trashed 207=), because my class guys were simply awesome, they were always in the lead:). Only thing is I seem to not contribute a lot. (the worries of being a girl: too "kind" to snatch the ball) Who cares, the game still rocks.

“黄真伊” is a really sad Korean series, especially till the part when her first love died because of a fever. I have it's OST, I told my mum about it, she plays everyday, makes me feel emo in turn.
I often wanted to be someone great. I often wanted to be a great composer like Chopin. I wanted to be a great scientist like Einstein. I wanted to be someone who can accomplish big things. And then I realise I can't. I don't have the ability, I don't have the motivation, I'm just not suited to be that kind of person. And this makes me hate myself. I hate myself for wasting my life away on my laptop, I hate myself for not using all this time wisely on Science and Math, or even anything.

I wanted to be smarter than YS, yet I'm not doing anything. At all. And I keep complaining about it when the fault is with me. I always try to push the blame to not having a good foundation in primary school, but is that really so?

I really detest myself, the way I behave sometimes.

And, I sense, something wrong, with her. (No not referring to anyone in my school).

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Now playing on iTunes: Linkin Park - Figure.09
via FoxyTunes

My mum kidnapped my dolphin TT.TT
Shouldn't have shown it to her!
Now she's hugging it to sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
P.S.: Unless you have the dolphin, you won't get what I mean, so don't bother.
*screams frantically*
I always hug it to sleep...I can only sleep with it...now my mum is hugging it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm trying my best not to be emo, my mum is making me emo again. With her damn old songs. And kidnapping my dolphin. Again.

Without that nice dolphin to hug I can't sleep. And I have lessons tomorrow. Wah what's wrong with me =(

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Now playing on iTunes: Linkin Park - Part Of Me
via FoxyTunes

Happy happy happy! =D

So now...I heard that Bryan is joining Track, Yichen seems interested=D. Yay good good good, someone can run with me together liao. ><

Still feeling bored, and I shall scream at the timetable...again.

201 and 206 had gotten it. Tomorrow. And all Tuesdays thereafter. 4.5 hours of lessons, without break at all. My mum is helping me predict that I am so going to die.

Gahs. So many new songs to download for o2jam. Tiring sia, keep downloading, extracting...Then downloading .rar files using download managers always screw up, managed to make it become 10++kb only. Then tell me file corrupted. =.=

"I'm not afraid about anything, I'm only afraid that I had not loved you enough."

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Now playing on iTunes: Linkin Park - In The End
via FoxyTunes

The pieces of memories I have made it a wonderful year, I must admit.
Chopin may have been quite lonely. I even start to wonder whether he had a nervous breakdown before.
Damns I have finally reached the end of the game "Paper Mario" which means I would be more bored than ever. Sighs.
Before I forget...
Who said that cats are meant to be scared away?!?!?!?!?! You evil...
I literally hug the "Music Appreciation" book to sleep this afternoon xD. With something else=D.
I'm feeling weird all over. The timetable is screwed up!!! Very!

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Now playing on iTunes: Robert Stahlbrand - Chopin - Op.28 no.06, Prelude in B-minor
via FoxyTunes

Yes end of orientation. Thank god I don't have to feel guilty for slacking again.
But please stop saying that he's very "失败". You should thank god that I did not strangle you people damn it. You all never mention him at all, so how can it be counted?!

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Now playing on iTunes: Robert Stahlbrand - Chopin - Op.28 no.01, Prelude in C major
via FoxyTunes

It's just...atrocious. I mean my mum, not the timetable.
I'm so pissed off to the top.

Thank god I bought this "Cat Naps" 2008 calender that shows over 300 kittens sleeping=D.

First and foremost, happy new year=)
Hmm, nothing much for orientation, seeing my friends back is of course the best part. Talked about timetable, school creed etc. The mass dance this year...well it's much better than last year for me. Probably the dance steps are easier, or I concentrated better.
What I'm feeling now:

Why can't they just leave us alone for once?! Is it even our fault that we are together?

Sighs. T.T
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Now playing on iTunes: 최혜진 - 해어화 (최혜진)
via FoxyTunes

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