What I heard from Gold 90.0FM just now.

Apparently the person got an email, about a professor going to a farm and lighting up the methane gas the cow emitted. When the cow's rectum contracted back, the flame was sucked up, the cow exploded, a worker died because he/she got hit by a bone of the cow.

Obviously it's false.

Hi.

Blue ducks pwn you.

Because I'm bored again.

MUSIC MEME:
1. Put your music player on all your music, then shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 3 people.
5. with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

1. HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
彩虹--周杰伦
“看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着 ，你的身影这么近我却抱不到……”
What kind of feeling is that...

2. WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE?
Sumiregusa--Enya
The lyrics are about nature, and it's in Japanese. So?

3. HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS SEE YOU?
Beverly Hills--Weezer
"I'm just a no-class beat down fool, and I will always be that way..."

4. WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Everything changes--Staind
"When it's just you and me, who knows what we can do..." I really don't know about this one.

5. WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIENDS THEME SONG?
米兰的小铁将-周杰伦
O_O

6. WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Change--Staind
...

7. WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE?
Enth E Nd--Linkin Park
Finally, it made sense.

10. WHAT IS IN STORE FOR THIS WEEKEND?
The Ripper--Iced Earth
Eh?

11. TO DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS?
外婆--周杰伦
LOL just appropriate. I guess.

12. HOW IS YOUR LIFE GOING?
Sonata no. 19 in G minor, Op. 49, No. 1 - 1: Andante--Beethoven
Meow?

13. WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Wth>You--Linkin Park
I would love that.

14. HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
Piano Concerto no. 4 in G-major, Op. 58, 2nd movement--Beethoven
O.O

15. WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Halt mich--Lacrimosa
Halt mich is "Stop Me" in German (now I know).

16. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?
Stumme Worte -- Lacrimosa
"Silent words" in German.........

"These words remain silent
My mouth will not give them life
So they come creeping back to me
To tear my heart to shreds

But I would not forgot this pain
For it is all I have left of her"

17. DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?
逆鳞--周杰伦
O.O No connection whatsoever.

18. HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY?
One Step Closer--Linkin Park (Live In Texas)
YES, listen to Linkin Park =D

19. WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
Never Ending Story -- Within Temptation
Ooh my life is never ending o.o

20. WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Points of Authority--Linkin Park
...

21. WHAT SONG WILL YOU STRIP TO?
If You Can't Leave It Be, Might As Well Make It Bleed--Dashboard Confessional
Wow sure.

22. IF A MAN IN A VAN OFFERED YOU CANDY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Heart Songs--Weezer
I love this song...so I sing it and then?

23. WHAT DOES YOUR MOTHER THINK OF YOU?
Sonata Op.110 in A flat major - 1: Moderato cantabile, molto espressivo--Beethoven
No comments

24. WHAT IS YOUR DEEP DARK SECRET?
菊花台--周杰伦
Considering the scene of the movie when this song started playing, oh no.

25. WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?
Copycat--Lacrimosa
"What if I break the silence, what if I do forgive the past..." Hmm.

26. WHAT'S YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
Reasons to Live--Dragonforce
"A star shines in all of us, we'll search for all our lives,
One day we'll find a way, and a reason to survive,
Cry for the day to return like no one can understand,
We all face our fears in the world,
We all hold our place in the universe,
For eternity"

WOOTS=D

27. WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?
Believe--Disturbed
Believe in it? Hmm.

Jay Chou Rubik's Cube.

Me haz it. You haz and/or have and/or had it not.

Pizza and Calculus. XD

Yesterday's emcee job was much better than I thought. They actually laughed, and Ian said it's because my voice is cuter than Xinran's. =.=

Whipped cream straight from the can is teh pwn =D

Only it makes you full damn easily.

My hairfall is veh the bad!

T.T

Should have bought hair fall solution for Sunsilk. Wasted =.=

These days, nothing much happening.

Ok fine, for those who were/are wondering, the last post (not two posts=.=) was not about anyone in school in particular at all. Not YS, not Jun Yup, not my friends, not anyone in the school. Thanks a lot.

Apparently, my mum mixed Pepsi with Heineken. And my soup was made with Heineken also!

Cheers, I say.

Will you please excuse me? Thank you.

No one gives a damn, no one cares.

And so he said, "The sun is setting, the patient's dying." But of course, no one cares, no one gives a damn. And so he dies.

All this while. The strength, the care, the time, the mind, the sleep, the food, the money, the noise, the effort, the sweat, the ache, the beatings, the scoldings, the memories, the scars, the burns, the hits, the cuts, the shoutings, the witnesses, the don't-give-a-damn-s, the very-happy-s, the ignorance, the sweet revenge, the disregard, the disrespect, the old, the young, the innocent, the trust, the belief, the pitch.

THE FUCKING PAIN.

And so you claim you care. And so you think you've said all the thanks. And so you say that you have been working hard. And so you think forgetting is like shift+del the documents away.

If life was as easy as that, I would have shift+deleted you.

Stop asking me to forgive and forget. Stop asking me to fucking stop thinking about it. You gave me those scars, you remove them.

Why am I responsible for everything?

And so I cannot cry, I cannot feel sad. I am supposed to put this big, wide smile for you, and tell you, "Oh yay I'm so happy today, nothing happened at school."

Forgive and forget.

How many times already.

I exposed myself so thoroughly, and this is what you do to me.

I trust myself to you, and this is what you do to me.

Do I even worth a cent? Do I even worth a speck of dust? No?

You see none of me. Then why bother about me in the first place?

LEAVE ME ALONE THEN, BITCH.

Stop finding me, force-opening those wounds, add in salt and pepper and chilli, and zip them back up.

Amateur Surgeon works with a pizza cutter, paint and staplers. Those fucking bruises you left on me don't.

You do not just go to Popular, buy a damn stapler and stapler bullets, and staple the cuts up like attaching two pieces of paper to become one again. Even scotchtape works better than that.

What am I to you? Disposable doll? 10 for $1? Or those $0.80 "Made in China" toys from the vending machine?

If this is the kind of sympathy you are giving me, fine.

I love you so much, I get this.

I sleep while holding you tighter than ever, I get this.

You are not worth my worry at all, but I still do.

Why?

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If you choose to take personal offence, then let it be. You left me to take my own personal offence also, you threw me off the cliff, with my collar hanging on the edge. You attempt to piece me back together, I put up whatever I can, then you throw me off to hell instead.

I hate you.

Because I'm bored too.

MUSIC MEME:
1. Put your music player on all your music, then shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 3 people.
5. with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

1. HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
Soldier Side--System of A Down
"They were crying when sons left, god is wearing black...He's gone so far to find no hope, he's never coming back..."

2. WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE?
Piano Sonata nr.15 in D major op.28 "Pastoral" - II. Andante--Beethoven
Kinda peaceful, no?

3. HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS SEE YOU?
Several Ways to Die Trying--Dashboard Confessional
...Die trying of what? (I have a feeling people have comments, please IM me privately)

4. WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Sonatine 8-1 -- o2jam
Huh?

5. WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIENDS THEME SONG?
Tränen Der Existenzlosigkeit -- Lacrimosa
Something about "your tears"...Man.

6. WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Hand of Sorrow -- Within Temptation
O.O

7. WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE?
Beethoven - Piano Sonata no.23, Appassionata, Op.57, I. Allegro Assai
O_O. Peaceful also? Yea sure, since when in hell man.

10. WHAT IS IN STORE FOR THIS WEEKEND?
Pretty -- The Cranberries
If only...

11. TO DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS?
Etude in C minor, op. 10-12 Revolutionary
They were revolutionary?

12. HOW IS YOUR LIFE GOING?
Breaking The Habit--Linkin Park
"Memories consume, like opening the wounds, I'm picking me aparrt again..."

13. WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
The Phantom of The Opera -- Nightwish
...Wow. Though I prefer "O Fortuna" or "Dies Irae"

14. HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
Diluted -- Slipknot
"God what the fuck is wrong, you act like you knew it all along. Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing."

15. WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Beethoven - op.69 no.2, Cello Sonata in A major, II. Scherzo
Classical life? Sweet.

16. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?
Inside The Winter Storm -- Dragonforce
Woots.

17. DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?
High Voltage -- Linkin Park
i) Ting got this song for the previous question. ii) Is that supposed to be good or bad?

18. HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY?
Drifting -- Enya
i) No, this song does not make me happy. ii) I drift, therefore I am happy?

19. WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
Tattered and Torn -- Slipknot
Tear my life up?

20. WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Carousel -- Linkin Park
Eh? Carousel? Children?

21. WHAT SONG WILL YOU STRIP TO?
03 Enth E Nd -- Linkin Park
O.O Wth

22. IF A MAN IN A VAN OFFERED YOU CANDY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Awaken -- Disturbed
i) Yes I will be awakened instantly. ii) Yes I will feel disturbed.

23. WHAT DOES YOUR MOTHER THINK OF YOU?
蒲公英的约定--周杰伦
Never mind. Seriously.

24. WHAT IS YOUR DEEP DARK SECRET?
Black Tears -- Heaven Shall Burn
Literally dark.

25. WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?
Prophecy -- Iced Earth
I have not listened to that song before.

26. WHAT'S YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
Feed Us-- Serj Tankian
"Maybe we believe, she was ready to go, in the morning light...
Maybe you believe, that she was made of gold, in the east where you killed her
You lead us, when you need to feed us
You comfortably delete us, when you need your fetus..."

Go figure yourself.

27. WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?
The Final March -- Heaven Shall Burn
Huh?

Pwnage quiz

Have I quoted "Step Up" before? I don't think so.

Step Up--Linkin Park
Watch as the room rocks
Mentally moonwalk
Mixed media slang
Banging in your boom box verbal violence
Lyrical stylist
In a time when rock hip hop rhymes are childish
You can’t tempt me with rhymes that are empty
Rapping to a beat doesn’t make you an emcee
With your lack of skill and facility
You’re killing me
And a DJ in the group just for credibility
I heard that some of you are getting help with your rhymes
You’re not an emcee if someone else writes your lines
And rapping over rock doesn’t make you a pioneer
Cause rock and hip hop have collaborated for years
But now they’re getting randomly mixed and matched up
All after a fast buck and all the tracks suck
So how does it stack up? None of it’s real
You want to be an emcee you’ve got to study the skill

Who can rock a rhyme like this?
Bring it to you every time like this? (2x)
Step, step up, step, step up

So you pick up a pen and write yourself a new identity
But mentally you don’t have the hip hop energy
With a tendency to make up stories
Sounding like the only hip hop you’ve heard is top 40
And your record company is completely missing it
All the kids are dissing it for not being legitimate
So in a battle you can't hack it
React with whack shit
And get smacked with verbal back flips
Get your ass kicked by fabulous battle catalysts
It's taken decades for emcees to establish this
You’re new to hip hop and welcome if your serious
But not on the mic
Leave that to the experienced

(Using the waves of sound the true master paralyzes his opponents, leaving him vulnerable to attack)

Chorus (2x)

(After years of pain staking research by the world's leading sound scientists, we here at the sound institute have invented a reliable audio weapons system. Actual movement of musical sound in space used to carefully attack and neutralize the cellular structure of the human body, and the question must be asked.)

Chorus (2x)

你听得到-周杰伦
有谁能比我知道
你的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱
只有你能听得到
还有没有人知道
你的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着你的好
只有我看得到
站在屋顶只对风说不想被左右
本来讨厌下雨的天空
直到听见有人说爱我
坐在电影院的二楼看人群走过
怎么那一天的我们
都默默地微笑很久
我想我是太过依赖
在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩
静静看守这份爱
知道不能太依赖
怕你会把我宠坏
你的香味一直徘徊
我舍不得离开
比我知道
你的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱
@·#￥%……*&$
还有没有人知道
你的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着你的好
只有我看得到
坐在电影院的二楼看人群走过
怎么那一天的我们
都默默地微笑很久
我想我是太过依赖
在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩
静静看守这份爱
知道不能太依赖
怕你会把我宠坏
你的香味一直徘徊
我舍不得离开
我想我是太过依赖
在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩
我舍不得离开

"I'm not drinking and driving, i'm driving while drinking, right?"

Yes, Heineken is damn bitter. I rather Guiness.

Sorry YS, never read about caffeine addiction till last night.

Moral of the story: Never every drink two cans of Nescafe continuously.

Sighs.

Sorry.

I hate keeping this stupid facade in front of my parents. I hate forcing dinners down mmy throat.

Reasons to Live--Dragonforce
Once again I'm here alone my secret life awaits me,
Still a thousand miles away from a land of broken dreams,

Night falls and the screen is shining, forced deception behind the lines,
Hours wasted aimlessly gone time and time again.

Try to understand, desperately locked with a dream in my hand,
Will you wait along for me tonight?
Hold me, save me.

A star shines in all of us, we'll search for all our lives,
One day we'll find a way, and a reason to survive,
Cry for the day to return like no one can understand,
We all face our fears in the world,
We all hold our place in the universe,
For eternity

Hide the lines decieve myself, erase the past from my space,
In the tears of lonliness and far across the land,

Once sure but my eyes are blinded,
Frantic change for a place to hide,
Lost generations apart an ancient light returns.

Kindness in her eyes, taken away by a man in disguise
Won't you wait along again tonight?
Save me, take me.

A star shines in all of us, we'll search for all our lives,
One day we'll find a way, and a reason to survive,
Cry for the day to return like no one can understand,
We all face our fears in the world,
We all hold our place in the universe,
For eternity...

Herman/Sam/Herman/Herman/Sam/Herman/Vadim/Sam

Try to understand, desperately locked with a dream in my hand,
Will you wait along for me tonight?
Hold me, save me.

A star shines in all of us, we'll search for all our lives,
One day we'll find a way, and a reason to survive,
Cry for the day to return like no one can understand,
Our past has returned to us all,
Our memories will fly free forever,
So far from the cries of the world,
For eternity...

A Flame For Freedom--Dragonforce
[Chorus]
One dream in all of us still shining,
One star, the ever lasting light,
So alone, so lost inside, to the ending paradise,
United, victorious, the hearts of our nation tonight.

In the dark December morning light,
Far strong to the burning winds, the fires of Hell will foresake me,
Shattering the chains that ever bind us,
Suffering their pain eternally.

For strong, smash the silence, carry on like before,
Fires burn, still we battle, lost so far away,
Storm with hail fire raging, sun shines down as they kneel,
Lost in times and long forgotten, governing miles away.

Tears fall inside the dream, our last days gone by,
Still alive we feel the pain tonight,
Stars fall through blackened clouds, and dreams that miss rains,
A twilight star in the thousand lights for me.

Ohhhhhhhhh.

[Chorus]
One dream in all of us still shining,
One star, the ever lasting light,
So alone, so lost inside, to the ending paradise,
Salvation of mankind returns.

And still we save a breath for the world,
Life brings up for us all,
United, victorious, the hearts of our nation tonight.

One dream in all of us still shining,
One star, the ever lasting light...

[Chorus]
One dream in all of us still shining,
One star, the ever lasting light,
So alone, so lost inside, to the ending paradise,
Salvation of mankind returns.

And still we save a breath for the world,
Life brings up for us all,
United, victorious, the hearts of our nation tonight.

United, victorious, the hearts of our nation tonight.
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Me loves Dragonforce! Together with Audiosurf especially xD

Played the whole album on Audiosurf, shuang like siao =P

Headache+tired+cold = ?!

Sleepy. And don't feel like eating dinner at all.

Sian ar!

Starting time: 1106

Name: ...Joanne?

Sisters: 0

Shoe size: 37

Height: 150+cm

Where do you live: The place I am living at right now.

Favourite drinks: 100plus!

Favourite breakfast: vacuum (Ian's answer, but make sense)

Have you ever been on a plane?: Never!

Swam in the ocean?: ...

Fallen asleep at school?: If you have not before, you are pro.

Broke someone's heart?: Go ask that someone.

Fell off your chair?: Lalala.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?: Ah...go ask that someone also=.=

Saved e-mails?: I don't even bother deleting them.

What is your room like?: How it's supposed to be like lor.

What's right beside you?: Define "right beside".

What is the last thing you ate: Dumplings (yes it's mooncake festival tomorrow and I am eating dumplings)

Do you like your hand-writing?: NO!~

Are your toe nails painted?: ...

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in?: ...

what colour teeshirt are you wearing now?: White!

What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday?: Staring the hell out of everything on the bus.

When did you cry last?: Does it matter?

Are you a friendly person?: No?

Do you have any pets?: Does it matter?

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: The place the person is supposed to be at right now?

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: ...I am getting sick of this quiz.

Do you sleep with the TV on? i dont even watch TV. hello. does the comp count as TV?

What are you doing right now?: Thinking why I am bothering to do it (Ian Foo you are dead)

Have you ever crawled through a window?: O.O

Can you handle the truth?: What type of truth?

Are you too forgiving?: Tch.

Are you closer to your mother or father? ...Are you gonna use that against me?

Who was the last person you cried in front of? ...This quiz sucks.

How many people can you say you've really loved? ...I give up.

Do you eat healthy? :I don't think so.

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? ...=.=

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? ...

Are you loud or quiet most of the time? :Loud.

Are you confident? :Of what???

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1.Crying
2. Biting cupboards
3. Watching TV
4. Eating
5. Sleeping

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. homework
2. IMM!
3. More homework.
4. Some more homework
5. Flash games!


5 snacks I enjoy:
let R be the set of snacks that i enjoy, with 5 elements! so yeah i like set R (nice one Ian)

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. spend.
2. donate.
3. Spend.
4. Donate.
5. Spend whatever's remaining.

5 of my bad habits:
1. I slack.
2. I emo.
3. I shout.
4. I sleep at wrong times.
5. I do things at wrong times.

5 places I have lived in:
1. singapore
2. malaysia
3. 3D space
4. milky way (Lol Ian)
5. universe. (More lol Ian)

5 jobs I've had: (lazy change)
1. life.
2. school.
3. emo.
4. sqrt -1
5. 4/0

5 people I tag:
1. Ting
2. Su XD
3. JOSEPHINE AR....
4. Amanda!!!!!!!!!
5. Triciaaaaaaa

We were taught, that when you have more than once choices, most of the time you must choose the best answer.

We were taught, that friends are divided into different kinds.

We were taught, that we can imagine, that we can think, we can feel.

I may be indirectly blaming anyone here. But what I have to say, is this.

I always try my best (or at least wanted to) care for those who are concerned about me. I am always thankful for those who are caring for me, who are worried about me, who thinks about me. I always try my best to let them know, I am there for them to scream at, rant at, talk to, etc.

But, no matter how hard I try, I just doesn't get it right.

It may be I don't know how to choose. It may be that I am indecisive. It may be that I am cheating on both sides. It may be that I am hurting both sides.

In class, I have to choose between group A and group B.

Among my friends, I always have to satisfy both Friend A and Friend B.

EVEN IN RELATIONSHIPS, I always have to choose what to do, so that I won't hurt anyone.

But, I end up hurting everyone.

Because, both Group A and Group B are my good friends.

Because, both Friend A and Friend B trust me, and that I treasure both of them.

Because, both of them love me, and I don't want to hurt either one of them, because of me.

But, they always get hurt by my lack of good choice, my indecisiveness, my greediness to get everything from both sides.

And no matter what I do, I do not get even a side right.

And so, I have to balance it out. And so, I have to make sure it's all 50-50. And so, I have to make sure it's fair share for everyone.

And so, I have to make a compromise between two opposites. Two complete opposites.

And so, both sides of the chessboard fight with each other, and I am the river containing both sides.

And, no matter how much I say sorry, it does not help. Some says I shouldn't be saying sorry, others say that apologising does not change the fact that I have hurt them.

Whatever I do, I don't get anything right. However hard I try, I always hurt everyone around me.

Why does it seem like everything is about me?

I am being self-centered. Very.

So why bother being with such a self-centered person?

Yes, I know you all care about me, you all take me as one to be treasure, you all take me as one of yours, you all try to make me happy.

People always tried to convince me that I had tried. But how much have I contributed?

People always tried to convince me that I had done nothing wrong. But how exactly right can I be, when everybody is getting cut by me?

I know saying sorry does not make it all right. Saying sorry does not mean everything goes back to normal.

Whether my sorry is sincere, or for the sake of it, nothing can change back to normal.

But, what else can I do? The more I do, the more I hurt people. Then when I don't do anything, it means that I don't even feel anything, not even the least shameful?

Does that I have not tried hard enough? Then what's with all the convincing?

I have done all that I could, to be there for those all around me. I tried my best, to make sure no one gets hurt. Is that being greedy? Is trying to make peace with everyone being too greedy?

When I ask you what I should do, either you say that I have already tried my best, or that I should not live for others.

Then what to do? Live by myself? And be self-centered? And hurt everyone again?

Wherever this goes to, it ends up by people getting hurt.

So what now?

Today is pwnage. Kinda. XD

Sports Day quiz, Zikai was lol.
"[something something] BBBBBBBBB!" XD

Faraday pwns once again! =D Fleming was second, Fibo third, Nobel forth.
Go Faraday!
Me and Amanda irritated YS with "Faraday!". XD

French consultation with Jean-Marc is O.O.

Slime-making was pure shuang. I created a blue normal one, and another yellow "oobleck"! XD

YS they all had a fun time with my slime and oobleck=.=

Relay competition! Being organiser was kinda fun, the screaming was kinda ok, except for some that didn't exactly cooperate with me and Rachel, but overall it was satisfying. Congrats to 201 girls team for first, guys team for 3rd (according to YS) and 1st for mixed. Sophie and Yue Qi were uber pwnage O.O
Lol Jiayi ran as first runner for 4x100m. XD

Got YS to help me buy mocha, was already slacking at the mixed events, because all that were present assembled already. Played with the yellow oobleck, got it on my skirt, and the grand stand XD but it's fun ok.

Then walked to MRT station with Amanda and YS and Jun Yup. Ting was totally into her music. Su and Trish went off early during the competition. Then some amazing things happened at the MRT station.

Yellow oobleck!

To someone: If you actually still read that blog, I locked it up already. Shall open it when I feel like it (or when you beg me again XD)

Too tired to post, because now my panda eyes are 1cm in height, 3cm in length =.=

(Random element): [Noble gas] 4s14 ...

By Yu Jia XD

"...and the third worst reason to give is "Mr Murali thought you so""

Mr Murali on Shahid while asking him about the half-filled orbitals XD

Still feeling happy...:) Thanks :)

Watched King Kong on Channel 5. Don't know what to say.

"Does it matter? The airplanes killed it."
"It wasn't the airplanes. It's the beauty that killed the beast."

Without my soft toys, I would...I don't know. For me, I must watch it with soft toys, or I won't be able to take it.

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I wished I never had a blog. What I post is boring, it is so hard to find a skin, yadda blah.

If one day, Internet crashes, we die. :O

Then we can go back to read books =D

Wondering how many people hate school holidays. Wondering when I can finish Breaking Dawn (left with that book to finish!) Wondering when I.P. Zone is having another sale. Wondering what to do tomorrow afternoon. Wondering how much more blessed I can feel right now.

Linkin Park! =D

I got spammed by birthday alerts for the same person from Facebook for 8 times. Argh.

"The future ends with a "r"!" -- Jean Marc XD

Once again stuck at "The Wicked" level 52.

"In scattered seeds i lie awake, waiting for the day i gather myself" What the bah.

One thing I did not expect is that I actually got the word in level 51. Yay me.

I should be leaving my blog dead. Bah.

EDIT: Playing Paper Mario, gonna do a quiz, fell asleep while reading "The Cosmic Onion"...


1.your name backwards?'
Ennaoj/ Gniy gnoy O.O

2. Your mood at the moment?
Meow.

3. What are you listening to right now?
This Is Such a Pity--Weezer

4. Done anything you regret so far this month?
...Yes definitely.

5. Describe the room your in?
You will not want to know. *ahemcoughahem*

6. What time is it?
Time is relative =D

7. What are you craving to have right now?
Chocolate (first thought, why?)

8. Who were the last people you went to the movies with?
LOL Wei Ren, Ting they all.

9. What is your greatest fear?
Why should I tell you? =P

10. Last movie you watched?
Journey to the Center of Earth (Cannot find it in JEL T.T)

11. Gone swimming in the past 24 hours?
The last time I "swam", I drowned. Dude=.=

12. What is your heritage?
Huh.

13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
What you think?

14. Britney Spears is a slut, agree or disagree?
Don't know, don't care, don't bother.

15. Last thing you downloaded on your computer?
...Like Toy Soldiers--Eminem

16. Have you changed much this year?
Yes.

17. Say something about the person you got this from?
He watched the Simpsons Movie illegally AGAIN.

18. If you became mentally handicapped would you live, or die?
Thanks for asking.

19. Hug or Kiss?
Event for what object? Label? Picturebox?

20. Say one of your friends and an inside joke with them.
Amanda. Don't know what (My selective memory is at work again.)

21. How many homes have you lived in?
a) Define homes.
b) Define "lived in". Really.

22. What did you have for supper last night?
Well...chocolate and strawberries *coughahemcough* ice-cream *coughsorrycough*

23. Who was the last person you IM?
The person who watched the Simpsons Movie illegally AGAIN lor.

24. What are you listening to now?
(player on shuffle) 米兰的小铁将--粥结轮

25. Has anyone ever said you looked like someone famous?
What you think?

26. How old are you?
Prime factorisation here is too easy...
f(x) = x^2 + x + 2
So my age is f(3).

27. Last thing you watched on TV?
鹿鼎记。韦小宝实在是……顽皮。=.=

28. Do you like someone?
I am sorry, but define "like".

29. Who's your best friend?
Tricia =D

30. Have you ever been drunk?
If I ever get the chance.

31. Who would win a fight between you or the other person?
Define "fight". (There are physical, mental, verbal...yadda blah...)

32. Favorite food(s)?
What you think.

33. What's your favorite bread?
I say...Pandan Chiffon CAKE!

34. Whats your favorite song?
A "most" in front of favorite should help a lot.

36. Drinking or drugs?
Drinking.

37. Have you peed your pants in the last year?
Yes of course. (=.=)

38. Any plans tonight?
*coughahemcough*

39. Do you miss anyone?
What. You. Think.

40. What are you looking forward to next month?
...My birthday =D

41. Favorite teacher?
Help save the world by putting "most" in front of favorite, will you? xD

42. Last time you smiled?
Now because this is question no 42!

You are...
[ ] male
[x] female
[ ] both
--
[ ] tall
[ ] in between
[x] short
--
[x] thin
[ ] big-sized
[ ] muscular
[ ] fit
[ ] average
[ ] don't know

Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] red
[ ] pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black-I just like it.
[ ] green
[x] blue-Duh.
[ ] gold
[x] white-=D
[ ] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
[ ] indigo

Some things you've done/played for fun at some point in your life:
[x] soccer
[x] cheer leading
[x] danced
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[x] football
[ ] softball
[x] wrestling (does arm-wrestling count?)
[x] gymnastics
[x] track
[x] cross country
[x] basketball
[ ] baseball-hahas the non-sick one
[x] golf (Toy set)
[x] chess
[x] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[ ] hiking
[x] kayaking
[x] camping
[ ] horseback riding
[x] marching band
[ ] smoke
[ ] get drunk every other night
[x] been in another country/province/state
[ ] go fishing
Not as deprived as I imagined.

You are sometimes...
[x] annoying
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] sweet *depends*
[x] funny
[ ] mysterious
[x] serious
[x] bubbly
[x] paranoid
[ ] fun-loving
[x] laid back
[x] strict
[x] hyper
[x] nervous
[x] weird
=.=

The music you like is?
[ ] rap
[x] rock
[ ] pop
[ ] country
[ ] hip hop
[x] r&b (Jay Chou)
[x] slow songs.
[ ] Christian
[x] classical
[ ] techno
[x] oldies (Not many)
[x] the 80s (Not many)
[x] punk (Alesana--Post-hardcore)
[x] Metal
[ ] reggae
[x] Goth (Lacrimosa!)
[ ] Latin
[ ] 90's Grunge (What the hell?)
[ ] musicals
[x] Linkin Park! (Self-added)

The pets you have/had are?
[ ] cat
[ ] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] snake
[ ] ferret
[x] spider
[ ] rabbit
[x] fishes
[ ] bird
[ ] hamster
[ ] little brother
[ ] terrapins
[ ] others- yeah myself.
Spider...

You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[x] emo
[ ] prep
[ ] athlete
[ ] punk
[ ] hippie
[x] nerd
[ ] ditzy (What does it mean?)
[x] hyper
[ ] happy
[ ] everything
[ ] I hate labels! I'm just me!!!
[x] I have no idea
I don't think many had seen me gothic.

You eat?
[x] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[ ] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[x] ice cream
[ ] lots of meat
[ ] salad
[x] seafood
[ ] exotic dishes
[ ] Mountain Dew
[ ] Dr. Pepper
[ ] Frappuccinos (Frankencapucinno?)

A typical friday/saturday night... (Typical?)
[ ] mall with your friends
[ ] dancing
[x] doing my homework
[ ] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[x] staying home
[x] playing videogames
[ ] babysitting
[ ] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[x] working while your friends are out having fun

Currently you are...
[ ] in a relationship♥ - no i'm not.
[ ] single- YES.
[ ] crushing- sheesh. no.
[ ] single and looking for someone
[ ] just broke up
[x] what you think?

Online, you use:
[x] lol
[ ] sup
[ ] lmao - not very often i know.
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[x] np
[x] jk
[ ] ♥
[ ] ttyl
[x] gtg
[x] xD
[ ] ^^
[x] T_T
[x] x_x
[x] ^_^
[x] o_O
[ ] TOT
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Fun time talking crap with Rachel after Track. Thought CO was in afternoon. I gave my phone to my mum D=

So.

Do NOT sms me. Because:

1. My mum will regard messages as weird (if she reads them and understands them)
2. No one will reply.

Thanks mum. You rock.

Congratulations, I Hate You--Alesana
no one ever said that life was fair and I'm not saying that it should be
so knowing that you are what you want to be and I'm not comes as no surprise
but don't expect me to be happy for you
and don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
I don't want your pity...I hate your pity

taste your vanity and its sweet bitterness
as you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams
...you took them all...
I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

swallow your pride.

beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries

suffer alone in emptiness
I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake
disgust lies deep within your empty gaze...

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

my envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars
leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine
yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve
I'll tear off your face to see your smile.

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

swallow your pride.

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

Alchemy Sounded Good At the Time--Alesana
(Spoken)
Tis the oldest story in the book
He desires the one thing he can not have.

My darling queen, I lay myself at your feet
And I shall stay the hands of fate

Wind cries out, heavens boil above voicing discontent to my sins
I have found the way to trick the ferryman
I have deceived the ancient Gods

Cold flesh lends to me its secrets
(Each day brings me closer to you)
for a price too high
(My tragic victory)
I shudder at what I have done


Darling queen I lay at your feet...
Chills take me as she wakes, throat gasps tainted breath
I've reclaimed you my stolen bride
Can your soul forgive my crimes of passion?
I would not close the casket; I'm so consumed by your pain
Faint screams echo through the night...

Cold flesh lends to me its secrets
(Each day brings me closer to you)
for a price too high
(My tragic victory)
I shudder at what I have done

The pains of death can no longer haunt you
(As the dawning sky brings forth one forsaken thought)
As the dawning sky brings forth one
(Forsaken thought)
Death can not win for I now dwell in the palace of decay
(And I shall stay)
The hands of fate

Night descends, sinews twitch
My pale queen finally stands to taste silent lips now cursed with her love

Cold flesh lends to me its secrets
(Each day brings me closer to you)
for a price too high
(My tragic victory)
I shudder at what I have done

Pastoral rocks. Regret not discovering it and listening to it in the past.

Oh well, it's nice =D

YS and his cousin keep talking about what rubato. O.O

His cousin is a fun person xD

EDIT at 8.39pm: Alesana is a nice band. Recommended by his cousin...and the song he let me hear was "Apology".

Apology--Alesana
sweat drips in my eyes
screams of lust we cry
tonight you are everything,
you're everything to me...
you're everything to me no more
as I wake from this perfect dream
I'll escape from Eden's walls
can I not stay and live this lie?
go away and I'll think only of myself

and to think that you will not be scared or surprised if I'd severed all these ties
this is the end...

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you

I feel so numb to see this bitter end of beautiful illusions...would this be the same?
broken pieces will not mend to save our past now...go away...

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

now we must let go
urgency overwhelms me as I must restrain my flood of tears
I refuse to be slave to your false beauty again

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

In my mind blood drips from your eyes
A beautiful last goodbye

Early Morning--Alesana
Last night I forgot, how the sound of your voice whispered sweet
Goodbyes, your eyes, left to die
I'm alone to understand why

Why not one more night
One last kiss goodbye
My sweet love tonight
I hope the stars
Still spell out your name where you are

Kiss my closing eyes
Help me sleep,
Without you I'm so lost
Tonight I cry
Tell me why
I can't live without your warm embrace

Why not one more night
One last kiss goodbye
My sweet love tonight
I hope the stars
Still spell out your name where you are

I close my eyes and you are everything I see
Goodbye

Goodbye to you my love
I won't forget you
I'll see you soon
Goodbye my love
Goodbye to you my love
I won't forget you
Bye, Bye love

If I ever get to see his cousin again, I must thank him. xD

Why the hell am I so short?

Was comparing leg length with Vivian and Timo in the library today. =.=

"How the hell do you run with your legs like that?" -- Timothy.

Yes, I am that short T.T

As usual, hating school holidays, other than the fact that I have more time to do my CS (and more time for PC2201 people to do their mind map xD)

Yep, the lead singer of System of A Down. Wondering if SOAD is metal or rock. >.<

The Unthinking Majority--Serj Tankian
We don't need your democracy
Execute them kindly for me
Take them by their filthy nostrils
Put them up in doggy hostels
We don't need your hypocrisy
Execute real democracy
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority

Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable
Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable

We don't need your hypocrisy
Execute real democracy
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority

Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable
Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable

We don't need your hypocrisy
Execute real democracy
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority
We don't need your hypocrisy
Execute real democracy.
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority

I believe that you're wrong
Insinuating they hold the bomb
Clearing the way for the oil brigade
Clearing the way for the oil brigade
I believe that you're wrong
Insinuating they hold the bomb
Clearing the way for the oil brigade
Clearing the way for the oil brigade

Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable
Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable
Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable

I believe that you're wrong
Insinuating they hold the bomb
Clearing the way for the oil brigade
Clearing the way for the oil brigade

We don't need your hypocrisy
Execute real democracy
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority
We don't need your democracy
Execute them kindly for me
Take them by their filthy nostrils
Put them up in doggie hostels
We don't need your hipocrisy
Execute real democracy
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority

I believe that you're wrong
Insinuating they hold the bomb
Clearing the way for the oil brigade
Clearing the way for the oil brigade

Empty Walls--Serj Tankian
Your empty walls...
Your empty walls...
Pretentious attention
Dismissive apprehension
Don't waste your time, on coffins today
When we decline, from the confines of our mind
Don't waste your time, on coffins today

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

I want you
To be
Left behind those empty walls
Taunt you
To see
From behind those empty walls

Those empty walls
When we decline, from the confines of our mind
Don't waste your time, on coffins today

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

I want you
To be
Left behind those empty walls
Taunt you
To see
From behind those empty walls
Want you to be
Left behind those empty walls
Taunt you
To see
From behind those empty walls

From behind those empty walls
From behind those empty walls
The walls
From behind those empty walls

I loved you
Yesterday, before
You killed my family

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

I want you
To be
Left behind those empty walls
Taunt you
To see
From behind those empty walls
Want you to be, left behind those empty walls
Taunt you
To see
From behind those empty walls
From behind those empty walls
From behind those fucking walls
From behind those God damn walls
Those walls...
Those walls...

Praise the Lord and Pass the Ammunition--Serj Tankian
Come lay it down, wont you,
Come burn it down, can't you,
Lay it down, the guns above the ground
Come lay it down, wont you,
Come burn it down, can't you,
Lay it down, the guns above the ground

LIlith is a prophet
From the prophet came the king
From the king came the pauper
From the pauper came the swing
From the swing came creation
From creation came love,
You don't know what this love is all about,

Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,
Life affirming and our spiritual trust

Lay it down, wont you,
Come burn it down, can't you,
Lay it down, the guns above the ground

Lilith is a prophet
From the prophet came the king
From the king came the pauper
From the pauper came the swing
From the swing came creation
From creation came love,
You don't know what this love is all about,

Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,
Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,

Buddha, Mohammad and the Hindu
Lost 100
Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,
People still ask when will Armageddon begin,

Dragging my feet any longer through the
Pussy litter,
Dragging my feet any longer through the
Pussy litter,
Dragging my feet any longer through the
Pussy litter,

Lilith is a prophet
From the prophet came the king
From the king came the pauper
From the pauper came the swing
From the swing came creation
From creation came love,
You don't know what this love is all about,

Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,
Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,

Do we ever have enough,
When we see that blue dove
Do we ever have enough
When we see that blue dove
We want to go where no ones been
No ones been

Come lay it down, wont you,
Come burn it down, can't you,
Lay it down, the guns above the ground
Wont you.

Writing my life story with my blood and tears

* Name: Tan Yong Ying
* School: NUS High School of Math & Science
* Class: M07106, M08206, M09304
* House: Faraday

What I heard from Gold 90.0FM just now.

Apparently the person got an email, about a professor going to a farm and lighting up the methane gas the cow emitted. When the cow's rectum contracted back, the flame was sucked up, the cow exploded, a worker died because he/she got hit by a bone of the cow.

Obviously it's false.

Hi.

Blue ducks pwn you.

Because I'm bored again.

MUSIC MEME:
1. Put your music player on all your music, then shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 3 people.
5. with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

1. HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
彩虹--周杰伦
“看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着 ，你的身影这么近我却抱不到……”
What kind of feeling is that...

2. WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE?
Sumiregusa--Enya
The lyrics are about nature, and it's in Japanese. So?

3. HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS SEE YOU?
Beverly Hills--Weezer
"I'm just a no-class beat down fool, and I will always be that way..."

4. WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Everything changes--Staind
"When it's just you and me, who knows what we can do..." I really don't know about this one.

5. WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIENDS THEME SONG?
米兰的小铁将-周杰伦
O_O

6. WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Change--Staind
...

7. WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE?
Enth E Nd--Linkin Park
Finally, it made sense.

10. WHAT IS IN STORE FOR THIS WEEKEND?
The Ripper--Iced Earth
Eh?

11. TO DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS?
外婆--周杰伦
LOL just appropriate. I guess.

12. HOW IS YOUR LIFE GOING?
Sonata no. 19 in G minor, Op. 49, No. 1 - 1: Andante--Beethoven
Meow?

13. WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Wth>You--Linkin Park
I would love that.

14. HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
Piano Concerto no. 4 in G-major, Op. 58, 2nd movement--Beethoven
O.O

15. WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Halt mich--Lacrimosa
Halt mich is "Stop Me" in German (now I know).

16. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?
Stumme Worte -- Lacrimosa
"Silent words" in German.........

"These words remain silent
My mouth will not give them life
So they come creeping back to me
To tear my heart to shreds

But I would not forgot this pain
For it is all I have left of her"

17. DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?
逆鳞--周杰伦
O.O No connection whatsoever.

18. HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY?
One Step Closer--Linkin Park (Live In Texas)
YES, listen to Linkin Park =D

19. WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
Never Ending Story -- Within Temptation
Ooh my life is never ending o.o

20. WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Points of Authority--Linkin Park
...

21. WHAT SONG WILL YOU STRIP TO?
If You Can't Leave It Be, Might As Well Make It Bleed--Dashboard Confessional
Wow sure.

22. IF A MAN IN A VAN OFFERED YOU CANDY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Heart Songs--Weezer
I love this song...so I sing it and then?

23. WHAT DOES YOUR MOTHER THINK OF YOU?
Sonata Op.110 in A flat major - 1: Moderato cantabile, molto espressivo--Beethoven
No comments

24. WHAT IS YOUR DEEP DARK SECRET?
菊花台--周杰伦
Considering the scene of the movie when this song started playing, oh no.

25. WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?
Copycat--Lacrimosa
"What if I break the silence, what if I do forgive the past..." Hmm.

26. WHAT'S YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
Reasons to Live--Dragonforce
"A star shines in all of us, we'll search for all our lives,
One day we'll find a way, and a reason to survive,
Cry for the day to return like no one can understand,
We all face our fears in the world,
We all hold our place in the universe,
For eternity"

WOOTS=D

27. WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?
Believe--Disturbed
Believe in it? Hmm.

Jay Chou Rubik's Cube.

Me haz it. You haz and/or have and/or had it not.

Pizza and Calculus. XD

Yesterday's emcee job was much better than I thought. They actually laughed, and Ian said it's because my voice is cuter than Xinran's. =.=

Whipped cream straight from the can is teh pwn =D

Only it makes you full damn easily.

My hairfall is veh the bad!

T.T

Should have bought hair fall solution for Sunsilk. Wasted =.=

These days, nothing much happening.

Ok fine, for those who were/are wondering, the last post (not two posts=.=) was not about anyone in school in particular at all. Not YS, not Jun Yup, not my friends, not anyone in the school. Thanks a lot.

Apparently, my mum mixed Pepsi with Heineken. And my soup was made with Heineken also!

Cheers, I say.

Will you please excuse me? Thank you.

No one gives a damn, no one cares.

And so he said, "The sun is setting, the patient's dying." But of course, no one cares, no one gives a damn. And so he dies.

All this while. The strength, the care, the time, the mind, the sleep, the food, the money, the noise, the effort, the sweat, the ache, the beatings, the scoldings, the memories, the scars, the burns, the hits, the cuts, the shoutings, the witnesses, the don't-give-a-damn-s, the very-happy-s, the ignorance, the sweet revenge, the disregard, the disrespect, the old, the young, the innocent, the trust, the belief, the pitch.

THE FUCKING PAIN.

And so you claim you care. And so you think you've said all the thanks. And so you say that you have been working hard. And so you think forgetting is like shift+del the documents away.

If life was as easy as that, I would have shift+deleted you.

Stop asking me to forgive and forget. Stop asking me to fucking stop thinking about it. You gave me those scars, you remove them.

Why am I responsible for everything?

And so I cannot cry, I cannot feel sad. I am supposed to put this big, wide smile for you, and tell you, "Oh yay I'm so happy today, nothing happened at school."

Forgive and forget.

How many times already.

I exposed myself so thoroughly, and this is what you do to me.

I trust myself to you, and this is what you do to me.

Do I even worth a cent? Do I even worth a speck of dust? No?

You see none of me. Then why bother about me in the first place?

LEAVE ME ALONE THEN, BITCH.

Stop finding me, force-opening those wounds, add in salt and pepper and chilli, and zip them back up.

Amateur Surgeon works with a pizza cutter, paint and staplers. Those fucking bruises you left on me don't.

You do not just go to Popular, buy a damn stapler and stapler bullets, and staple the cuts up like attaching two pieces of paper to become one again. Even scotchtape works better than that.

What am I to you? Disposable doll? 10 for $1? Or those $0.80 "Made in China" toys from the vending machine?

If this is the kind of sympathy you are giving me, fine.

I love you so much, I get this.

I sleep while holding you tighter than ever, I get this.

You are not worth my worry at all, but I still do.

Why?

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If you choose to take personal offence, then let it be. You left me to take my own personal offence also, you threw me off the cliff, with my collar hanging on the edge. You attempt to piece me back together, I put up whatever I can, then you throw me off to hell instead.

I hate you.

Because I'm bored too.

MUSIC MEME:
1. Put your music player on all your music, then shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 3 people.
5. with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

1. HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
Soldier Side--System of A Down
"They were crying when sons left, god is wearing black...He's gone so far to find no hope, he's never coming back..."

2. WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE?
Piano Sonata nr.15 in D major op.28 "Pastoral" - II. Andante--Beethoven
Kinda peaceful, no?

3. HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS SEE YOU?
Several Ways to Die Trying--Dashboard Confessional
...Die trying of what? (I have a feeling people have comments, please IM me privately)

4. WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Sonatine 8-1 -- o2jam
Huh?

5. WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIENDS THEME SONG?
Tränen Der Existenzlosigkeit -- Lacrimosa
Something about "your tears"...Man.

6. WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
Hand of Sorrow -- Within Temptation
O.O

7. WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE?
Beethoven - Piano Sonata no.23, Appassionata, Op.57, I. Allegro Assai
O_O. Peaceful also? Yea sure, since when in hell man.

10. WHAT IS IN STORE FOR THIS WEEKEND?
Pretty -- The Cranberries
If only...

11. TO DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS?
Etude in C minor, op. 10-12 Revolutionary
They were revolutionary?

12. HOW IS YOUR LIFE GOING?
Breaking The Habit--Linkin Park
"Memories consume, like opening the wounds, I'm picking me aparrt again..."

13. WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
The Phantom of The Opera -- Nightwish
...Wow. Though I prefer "O Fortuna" or "Dies Irae"

14. HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
Diluted -- Slipknot
"God what the fuck is wrong, you act like you knew it all along. Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing."

15. WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Beethoven - op.69 no.2, Cello Sonata in A major, II. Scherzo
Classical life? Sweet.

16. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?
Inside The Winter Storm -- Dragonforce
Woots.

17. DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?
High Voltage -- Linkin Park
i) Ting got this song for the previous question. ii) Is that supposed to be good or bad?

18. HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY?
Drifting -- Enya
i) No, this song does not make me happy. ii) I drift, therefore I am happy?

19. WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
Tattered and Torn -- Slipknot
Tear my life up?

20. WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
Carousel -- Linkin Park
Eh? Carousel? Children?

21. WHAT SONG WILL YOU STRIP TO?
03 Enth E Nd -- Linkin Park
O.O Wth

22. IF A MAN IN A VAN OFFERED YOU CANDY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Awaken -- Disturbed
i) Yes I will be awakened instantly. ii) Yes I will feel disturbed.

23. WHAT DOES YOUR MOTHER THINK OF YOU?
蒲公英的约定--周杰伦
Never mind. Seriously.

24. WHAT IS YOUR DEEP DARK SECRET?
Black Tears -- Heaven Shall Burn
Literally dark.

25. WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?
Prophecy -- Iced Earth
I have not listened to that song before.

26. WHAT'S YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
Feed Us-- Serj Tankian
"Maybe we believe, she was ready to go, in the morning light...
Maybe you believe, that she was made of gold, in the east where you killed her
You lead us, when you need to feed us
You comfortably delete us, when you need your fetus..."

Go figure yourself.

27. WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?
The Final March -- Heaven Shall Burn
Huh?

Pwnage quiz

Have I quoted "Step Up" before? I don't think so.

Step Up--Linkin Park
Watch as the room rocks
Mentally moonwalk
Mixed media slang
Banging in your boom box verbal violence
Lyrical stylist
In a time when rock hip hop rhymes are childish
You can’t tempt me with rhymes that are empty
Rapping to a beat doesn’t make you an emcee
With your lack of skill and facility
You’re killing me
And a DJ in the group just for credibility
I heard that some of you are getting help with your rhymes
You’re not an emcee if someone else writes your lines
And rapping over rock doesn’t make you a pioneer
Cause rock and hip hop have collaborated for years
But now they’re getting randomly mixed and matched up
All after a fast buck and all the tracks suck
So how does it stack up? None of it’s real
You want to be an emcee you’ve got to study the skill

Who can rock a rhyme like this?
Bring it to you every time like this? (2x)
Step, step up, step, step up

So you pick up a pen and write yourself a new identity
But mentally you don’t have the hip hop energy
With a tendency to make up stories
Sounding like the only hip hop you’ve heard is top 40
And your record company is completely missing it
All the kids are dissing it for not being legitimate
So in a battle you can't hack it
React with whack shit
And get smacked with verbal back flips
Get your ass kicked by fabulous battle catalysts
It's taken decades for emcees to establish this
You’re new to hip hop and welcome if your serious
But not on the mic
Leave that to the experienced

(Using the waves of sound the true master paralyzes his opponents, leaving him vulnerable to attack)

Chorus (2x)

(After years of pain staking research by the world's leading sound scientists, we here at the sound institute have invented a reliable audio weapons system. Actual movement of musical sound in space used to carefully attack and neutralize the cellular structure of the human body, and the question must be asked.)

Chorus (2x)

你听得到-周杰伦
有谁能比我知道
你的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱
只有你能听得到
还有没有人知道
你的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着你的好
只有我看得到
站在屋顶只对风说不想被左右
本来讨厌下雨的天空
直到听见有人说爱我
坐在电影院的二楼看人群走过
怎么那一天的我们
都默默地微笑很久
我想我是太过依赖
在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩
静静看守这份爱
知道不能太依赖
怕你会把我宠坏
你的香味一直徘徊
我舍不得离开
比我知道
你的温柔像羽毛
秘密躺在我怀抱
@·#￥%……*&$
还有没有人知道
你的微笑像拥抱
多想藏着你的好
只有我看得到
坐在电影院的二楼看人群走过
怎么那一天的我们
都默默地微笑很久
我想我是太过依赖
在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩
静静看守这份爱
知道不能太依赖
怕你会把我宠坏
你的香味一直徘徊
我舍不得离开
我想我是太过依赖
在挂电话的刚才
坚持学单纯的小孩
我舍不得离开

"I'm not drinking and driving, i'm driving while drinking, right?"

Yes, Heineken is damn bitter. I rather Guiness.

Sorry YS, never read about caffeine addiction till last night.

Moral of the story: Never every drink two cans of Nescafe continuously.

Sighs.

Sorry.

I hate keeping this stupid facade in front of my parents. I hate forcing dinners down mmy throat.

Reasons to Live--Dragonforce
Once again I'm here alone my secret life awaits me,
Still a thousand miles away from a land of broken dreams,

Night falls and the screen is shining, forced deception behind the lines,
Hours wasted aimlessly gone time and time again.

Try to understand, desperately locked with a dream in my hand,
Will you wait along for me tonight?
Hold me, save me.

A star shines in all of us, we'll search for all our lives,
One day we'll find a way, and a reason to survive,
Cry for the day to return like no one can understand,
We all face our fears in the world,
We all hold our place in the universe,
For eternity

Hide the lines decieve myself, erase the past from my space,
In the tears of lonliness and far across the land,

Once sure but my eyes are blinded,
Frantic change for a place to hide,
Lost generations apart an ancient light returns.

Kindness in her eyes, taken away by a man in disguise
Won't you wait along again tonight?
Save me, take me.

A star shines in all of us, we'll search for all our lives,
One day we'll find a way, and a reason to survive,
Cry for the day to return like no one can understand,
We all face our fears in the world,
We all hold our place in the universe,
For eternity...

Herman/Sam/Herman/Herman/Sam/Herman/Vadim/Sam

Try to understand, desperately locked with a dream in my hand,
Will you wait along for me tonight?
Hold me, save me.

A star shines in all of us, we'll search for all our lives,
One day we'll find a way, and a reason to survive,
Cry for the day to return like no one can understand,
Our past has returned to us all,
Our memories will fly free forever,
So far from the cries of the world,
For eternity...

A Flame For Freedom--Dragonforce
[Chorus]
One dream in all of us still shining,
One star, the ever lasting light,
So alone, so lost inside, to the ending paradise,
United, victorious, the hearts of our nation tonight.

In the dark December morning light,
Far strong to the burning winds, the fires of Hell will foresake me,
Shattering the chains that ever bind us,
Suffering their pain eternally.

For strong, smash the silence, carry on like before,
Fires burn, still we battle, lost so far away,
Storm with hail fire raging, sun shines down as they kneel,
Lost in times and long forgotten, governing miles away.

Tears fall inside the dream, our last days gone by,
Still alive we feel the pain tonight,
Stars fall through blackened clouds, and dreams that miss rains,
A twilight star in the thousand lights for me.

Ohhhhhhhhh.

[Chorus]
One dream in all of us still shining,
One star, the ever lasting light,
So alone, so lost inside, to the ending paradise,
Salvation of mankind returns.

And still we save a breath for the world,
Life brings up for us all,
United, victorious, the hearts of our nation tonight.

One dream in all of us still shining,
One star, the ever lasting light...

[Chorus]
One dream in all of us still shining,
One star, the ever lasting light,
So alone, so lost inside, to the ending paradise,
Salvation of mankind returns.

And still we save a breath for the world,
Life brings up for us all,
United, victorious, the hearts of our nation tonight.

United, victorious, the hearts of our nation tonight.
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Me loves Dragonforce! Together with Audiosurf especially xD

Played the whole album on Audiosurf, shuang like siao =P

Headache+tired+cold = ?!

Sleepy. And don't feel like eating dinner at all.

Sian ar!

Starting time: 1106

Name: ...Joanne?

Sisters: 0

Shoe size: 37

Height: 150+cm

Where do you live: The place I am living at right now.

Favourite drinks: 100plus!

Favourite breakfast: vacuum (Ian's answer, but make sense)

Have you ever been on a plane?: Never!

Swam in the ocean?: ...

Fallen asleep at school?: If you have not before, you are pro.

Broke someone's heart?: Go ask that someone.

Fell off your chair?: Lalala.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?: Ah...go ask that someone also=.=

Saved e-mails?: I don't even bother deleting them.

What is your room like?: How it's supposed to be like lor.

What's right beside you?: Define "right beside".

What is the last thing you ate: Dumplings (yes it's mooncake festival tomorrow and I am eating dumplings)

Do you like your hand-writing?: NO!~

Are your toe nails painted?: ...

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in?: ...

what colour teeshirt are you wearing now?: White!

What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday?: Staring the hell out of everything on the bus.

When did you cry last?: Does it matter?

Are you a friendly person?: No?

Do you have any pets?: Does it matter?

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: The place the person is supposed to be at right now?

Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?: ...I am getting sick of this quiz.

Do you sleep with the TV on? i dont even watch TV. hello. does the comp count as TV?

What are you doing right now?: Thinking why I am bothering to do it (Ian Foo you are dead)

Have you ever crawled through a window?: O.O

Can you handle the truth?: What type of truth?

Are you too forgiving?: Tch.

Are you closer to your mother or father? ...Are you gonna use that against me?

Who was the last person you cried in front of? ...This quiz sucks.

How many people can you say you've really loved? ...I give up.

Do you eat healthy? :I don't think so.

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex? ...=.=

Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? ...

Are you loud or quiet most of the time? :Loud.

Are you confident? :Of what???

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1.Crying
2. Biting cupboards
3. Watching TV
4. Eating
5. Sleeping

5 things on my to-do list today:
1. homework
2. IMM!
3. More homework.
4. Some more homework
5. Flash games!


5 snacks I enjoy:
let R be the set of snacks that i enjoy, with 5 elements! so yeah i like set R (nice one Ian)

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. spend.
2. donate.
3. Spend.
4. Donate.
5. Spend whatever's remaining.

5 of my bad habits:
1. I slack.
2. I emo.
3. I shout.
4. I sleep at wrong times.
5. I do things at wrong times.

5 places I have lived in:
1. singapore
2. malaysia
3. 3D space
4. milky way (Lol Ian)
5. universe. (More lol Ian)

5 jobs I've had: (lazy change)
1. life.
2. school.
3. emo.
4. sqrt -1
5. 4/0

5 people I tag:
1. Ting
2. Su XD
3. JOSEPHINE AR....
4. Amanda!!!!!!!!!
5. Triciaaaaaaa

We were taught, that when you have more than once choices, most of the time you must choose the best answer.

We were taught, that friends are divided into different kinds.

We were taught, that we can imagine, that we can think, we can feel.

I may be indirectly blaming anyone here. But what I have to say, is this.

I always try my best (or at least wanted to) care for those who are concerned about me. I am always thankful for those who are caring for me, who are worried about me, who thinks about me. I always try my best to let them know, I am there for them to scream at, rant at, talk to, etc.

But, no matter how hard I try, I just doesn't get it right.

It may be I don't know how to choose. It may be that I am indecisive. It may be that I am cheating on both sides. It may be that I am hurting both sides.

In class, I have to choose between group A and group B.

Among my friends, I always have to satisfy both Friend A and Friend B.

EVEN IN RELATIONSHIPS, I always have to choose what to do, so that I won't hurt anyone.

But, I end up hurting everyone.

Because, both Group A and Group B are my good friends.

Because, both Friend A and Friend B trust me, and that I treasure both of them.

Because, both of them love me, and I don't want to hurt either one of them, because of me.

But, they always get hurt by my lack of good choice, my indecisiveness, my greediness to get everything from both sides.

And no matter what I do, I do not get even a side right.

And so, I have to balance it out. And so, I have to make sure it's all 50-50. And so, I have to make sure it's fair share for everyone.

And so, I have to make a compromise between two opposites. Two complete opposites.

And so, both sides of the chessboard fight with each other, and I am the river containing both sides.

And, no matter how much I say sorry, it does not help. Some says I shouldn't be saying sorry, others say that apologising does not change the fact that I have hurt them.

Whatever I do, I don't get anything right. However hard I try, I always hurt everyone around me.

Why does it seem like everything is about me?

I am being self-centered. Very.

So why bother being with such a self-centered person?

Yes, I know you all care about me, you all take me as one to be treasure, you all take me as one of yours, you all try to make me happy.

People always tried to convince me that I had tried. But how much have I contributed?

People always tried to convince me that I had done nothing wrong. But how exactly right can I be, when everybody is getting cut by me?

I know saying sorry does not make it all right. Saying sorry does not mean everything goes back to normal.

Whether my sorry is sincere, or for the sake of it, nothing can change back to normal.

But, what else can I do? The more I do, the more I hurt people. Then when I don't do anything, it means that I don't even feel anything, not even the least shameful?

Does that I have not tried hard enough? Then what's with all the convincing?

I have done all that I could, to be there for those all around me. I tried my best, to make sure no one gets hurt. Is that being greedy? Is trying to make peace with everyone being too greedy?

When I ask you what I should do, either you say that I have already tried my best, or that I should not live for others.

Then what to do? Live by myself? And be self-centered? And hurt everyone again?

Wherever this goes to, it ends up by people getting hurt.

So what now?

Today is pwnage. Kinda. XD

Sports Day quiz, Zikai was lol.
"[something something] BBBBBBBBB!" XD

Faraday pwns once again! =D Fleming was second, Fibo third, Nobel forth.
Go Faraday!
Me and Amanda irritated YS with "Faraday!". XD

French consultation with Jean-Marc is O.O.

Slime-making was pure shuang. I created a blue normal one, and another yellow "oobleck"! XD

YS they all had a fun time with my slime and oobleck=.=

Relay competition! Being organiser was kinda fun, the screaming was kinda ok, except for some that didn't exactly cooperate with me and Rachel, but overall it was satisfying. Congrats to 201 girls team for first, guys team for 3rd (according to YS) and 1st for mixed. Sophie and Yue Qi were uber pwnage O.O
Lol Jiayi ran as first runner for 4x100m. XD

Got YS to help me buy mocha, was already slacking at the mixed events, because all that were present assembled already. Played with the yellow oobleck, got it on my skirt, and the grand stand XD but it's fun ok.

Then walked to MRT station with Amanda and YS and Jun Yup. Ting was totally into her music. Su and Trish went off early during the competition. Then some amazing things happened at the MRT station.

Yellow oobleck!

To someone: If you actually still read that blog, I locked it up already. Shall open it when I feel like it (or when you beg me again XD)

Too tired to post, because now my panda eyes are 1cm in height, 3cm in length =.=

(Random element): [Noble gas] 4s14 ...

By Yu Jia XD

"...and the third worst reason to give is "Mr Murali thought you so""

Mr Murali on Shahid while asking him about the half-filled orbitals XD

Still feeling happy...:) Thanks :)

Watched King Kong on Channel 5. Don't know what to say.

"Does it matter? The airplanes killed it."
"It wasn't the airplanes. It's the beauty that killed the beast."

Without my soft toys, I would...I don't know. For me, I must watch it with soft toys, or I won't be able to take it.

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I wished I never had a blog. What I post is boring, it is so hard to find a skin, yadda blah.

If one day, Internet crashes, we die. :O

Then we can go back to read books =D

Wondering how many people hate school holidays. Wondering when I can finish Breaking Dawn (left with that book to finish!) Wondering when I.P. Zone is having another sale. Wondering what to do tomorrow afternoon. Wondering how much more blessed I can feel right now.

Linkin Park! =D

I got spammed by birthday alerts for the same person from Facebook for 8 times. Argh.

"The future ends with a "r"!" -- Jean Marc XD

Once again stuck at "The Wicked" level 52.

"In scattered seeds i lie awake, waiting for the day i gather myself" What the bah.

One thing I did not expect is that I actually got the word in level 51. Yay me.

I should be leaving my blog dead. Bah.

EDIT: Playing Paper Mario, gonna do a quiz, fell asleep while reading "The Cosmic Onion"...


1.your name backwards?'
Ennaoj/ Gniy gnoy O.O

2. Your mood at the moment?
Meow.

3. What are you listening to right now?
This Is Such a Pity--Weezer

4. Done anything you regret so far this month?
...Yes definitely.

5. Describe the room your in?
You will not want to know. *ahemcoughahem*

6. What time is it?
Time is relative =D

7. What are you craving to have right now?
Chocolate (first thought, why?)

8. Who were the last people you went to the movies with?
LOL Wei Ren, Ting they all.

9. What is your greatest fear?
Why should I tell you? =P

10. Last movie you watched?
Journey to the Center of Earth (Cannot find it in JEL T.T)

11. Gone swimming in the past 24 hours?
The last time I "swam", I drowned. Dude=.=

12. What is your heritage?
Huh.

13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
What you think?

14. Britney Spears is a slut, agree or disagree?
Don't know, don't care, don't bother.

15. Last thing you downloaded on your computer?
...Like Toy Soldiers--Eminem

16. Have you changed much this year?
Yes.

17. Say something about the person you got this from?
He watched the Simpsons Movie illegally AGAIN.

18. If you became mentally handicapped would you live, or die?
Thanks for asking.

19. Hug or Kiss?
Event for what object? Label? Picturebox?

20. Say one of your friends and an inside joke with them.
Amanda. Don't know what (My selective memory is at work again.)

21. How many homes have you lived in?
a) Define homes.
b) Define "lived in". Really.

22. What did you have for supper last night?
Well...chocolate and strawberries *coughahemcough* ice-cream *coughsorrycough*

23. Who was the last person you IM?
The person who watched the Simpsons Movie illegally AGAIN lor.

24. What are you listening to now?
(player on shuffle) 米兰的小铁将--粥结轮

25. Has anyone ever said you looked like someone famous?
What you think?

26. How old are you?
Prime factorisation here is too easy...
f(x) = x^2 + x + 2
So my age is f(3).

27. Last thing you watched on TV?
鹿鼎记。韦小宝实在是……顽皮。=.=

28. Do you like someone?
I am sorry, but define "like".

29. Who's your best friend?
Tricia =D

30. Have you ever been drunk?
If I ever get the chance.

31. Who would win a fight between you or the other person?
Define "fight". (There are physical, mental, verbal...yadda blah...)

32. Favorite food(s)?
What you think.

33. What's your favorite bread?
I say...Pandan Chiffon CAKE!

34. Whats your favorite song?
A "most" in front of favorite should help a lot.

36. Drinking or drugs?
Drinking.

37. Have you peed your pants in the last year?
Yes of course. (=.=)

38. Any plans tonight?
*coughahemcough*

39. Do you miss anyone?
What. You. Think.

40. What are you looking forward to next month?
...My birthday =D

41. Favorite teacher?
Help save the world by putting "most" in front of favorite, will you? xD

42. Last time you smiled?
Now because this is question no 42!

You are...
[ ] male
[x] female
[ ] both
--
[ ] tall
[ ] in between
[x] short
--
[x] thin
[ ] big-sized
[ ] muscular
[ ] fit
[ ] average
[ ] don't know

Your favorite color(s) are?
[ ] red
[ ] pink
[ ] yellow
[x] black-I just like it.
[ ] green
[x] blue-Duh.
[ ] gold
[x] white-=D
[ ] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange
[ ] indigo

Some things you've done/played for fun at some point in your life:
[x] soccer
[x] cheer leading
[x] danced
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[x] football
[ ] softball
[x] wrestling (does arm-wrestling count?)
[x] gymnastics
[x] track
[x] cross country
[x] basketball
[ ] baseball-hahas the non-sick one
[x] golf (Toy set)
[x] chess
[x] playing in the mud
[x] playing music
[ ] hiking
[x] kayaking
[x] camping
[ ] horseback riding
[x] marching band
[ ] smoke
[ ] get drunk every other night
[x] been in another country/province/state
[ ] go fishing
Not as deprived as I imagined.

You are sometimes...
[x] annoying
[x] talkative
[x] shy
[x] sweet *depends*
[x] funny
[ ] mysterious
[x] serious
[x] bubbly
[x] paranoid
[ ] fun-loving
[x] laid back
[x] strict
[x] hyper
[x] nervous
[x] weird
=.=

The music you like is?
[ ] rap
[x] rock
[ ] pop
[ ] country
[ ] hip hop
[x] r&b (Jay Chou)
[x] slow songs.
[ ] Christian
[x] classical
[ ] techno
[x] oldies (Not many)
[x] the 80s (Not many)
[x] punk (Alesana--Post-hardcore)
[x] Metal
[ ] reggae
[x] Goth (Lacrimosa!)
[ ] Latin
[ ] 90's Grunge (What the hell?)
[ ] musicals
[x] Linkin Park! (Self-added)

The pets you have/had are?
[ ] cat
[ ] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] snake
[ ] ferret
[x] spider
[ ] rabbit
[x] fishes
[ ] bird
[ ] hamster
[ ] little brother
[ ] terrapins
[ ] others- yeah myself.
Spider...

You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[x] emo
[ ] prep
[ ] athlete
[ ] punk
[ ] hippie
[x] nerd
[ ] ditzy (What does it mean?)
[x] hyper
[ ] happy
[ ] everything
[ ] I hate labels! I'm just me!!!
[x] I have no idea
I don't think many had seen me gothic.

You eat?
[x] dessert every night
[ ] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[ ] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[x] ice cream
[ ] lots of meat
[ ] salad
[x] seafood
[ ] exotic dishes
[ ] Mountain Dew
[ ] Dr. Pepper
[ ] Frappuccinos (Frankencapucinno?)

A typical friday/saturday night... (Typical?)
[ ] mall with your friends
[ ] dancing
[x] doing my homework
[ ] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[x] staying home
[x] playing videogames
[ ] babysitting
[ ] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[x] working while your friends are out having fun

Currently you are...
[ ] in a relationship♥ - no i'm not.
[ ] single- YES.
[ ] crushing- sheesh. no.
[ ] single and looking for someone
[ ] just broke up
[x] what you think?

Online, you use:
[x] lol
[ ] sup
[ ] lmao - not very often i know.
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[x] np
[x] jk
[ ] ♥
[ ] ttyl
[x] gtg
[x] xD
[ ] ^^
[x] T_T
[x] x_x
[x] ^_^
[x] o_O
[ ] TOT
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Fun time talking crap with Rachel after Track. Thought CO was in afternoon. I gave my phone to my mum D=

So.

Do NOT sms me. Because:

1. My mum will regard messages as weird (if she reads them and understands them)
2. No one will reply.

Thanks mum. You rock.

Congratulations, I Hate You--Alesana
no one ever said that life was fair and I'm not saying that it should be
so knowing that you are what you want to be and I'm not comes as no surprise
but don't expect me to be happy for you
and don't smile at me and tell me things will work out for me too
I don't want your pity...I hate your pity

taste your vanity and its sweet bitterness
as you hide behind your veil of my stolen hopes and lost dreams
...you took them all...
I watched you steal my thoughts and had to see you smile

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

swallow your pride.

beg me to make this easier and listen to my hopeless cries

suffer alone in emptiness
I lust to see you swallowed by the mess that you left in your wake
disgust lies deep within your empty gaze...

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

my envy can't describe how I loathe you for having all the stars
leaving my eyes to marvel the sky knowing it should be mine
yet it's you I see wasting the dream that only I deserve
I'll tear off your face to see your smile.

as you build your dreams on my shattered hopes
I'll look back on a day once loved and fantasize for tragedy

swallow your pride.

beg me to make this easier and listen as my hopeless cries
send stares into your meaningless eyes

Alchemy Sounded Good At the Time--Alesana
(Spoken)
Tis the oldest story in the book
He desires the one thing he can not have.

My darling queen, I lay myself at your feet
And I shall stay the hands of fate

Wind cries out, heavens boil above voicing discontent to my sins
I have found the way to trick the ferryman
I have deceived the ancient Gods

Cold flesh lends to me its secrets
(Each day brings me closer to you)
for a price too high
(My tragic victory)
I shudder at what I have done


Darling queen I lay at your feet...
Chills take me as she wakes, throat gasps tainted breath
I've reclaimed you my stolen bride
Can your soul forgive my crimes of passion?
I would not close the casket; I'm so consumed by your pain
Faint screams echo through the night...

Cold flesh lends to me its secrets
(Each day brings me closer to you)
for a price too high
(My tragic victory)
I shudder at what I have done

The pains of death can no longer haunt you
(As the dawning sky brings forth one forsaken thought)
As the dawning sky brings forth one
(Forsaken thought)
Death can not win for I now dwell in the palace of decay
(And I shall stay)
The hands of fate

Night descends, sinews twitch
My pale queen finally stands to taste silent lips now cursed with her love

Cold flesh lends to me its secrets
(Each day brings me closer to you)
for a price too high
(My tragic victory)
I shudder at what I have done

Pastoral rocks. Regret not discovering it and listening to it in the past.

Oh well, it's nice =D

YS and his cousin keep talking about what rubato. O.O

His cousin is a fun person xD

EDIT at 8.39pm: Alesana is a nice band. Recommended by his cousin...and the song he let me hear was "Apology".

Apology--Alesana
sweat drips in my eyes
screams of lust we cry
tonight you are everything,
you're everything to me...
you're everything to me no more
as I wake from this perfect dream
I'll escape from Eden's walls
can I not stay and live this lie?
go away and I'll think only of myself

and to think that you will not be scared or surprised if I'd severed all these ties
this is the end...

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you

I feel so numb to see this bitter end of beautiful illusions...would this be the same?
broken pieces will not mend to save our past now...go away...

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

now we must let go
urgency overwhelms me as I must restrain my flood of tears
I refuse to be slave to your false beauty again

I'll lose myself in anguish for tonight
help me get over you
one last false apology
help me get over you

In my mind blood drips from your eyes
A beautiful last goodbye

Early Morning--Alesana
Last night I forgot, how the sound of your voice whispered sweet
Goodbyes, your eyes, left to die
I'm alone to understand why

Why not one more night
One last kiss goodbye
My sweet love tonight
I hope the stars
Still spell out your name where you are

Kiss my closing eyes
Help me sleep,
Without you I'm so lost
Tonight I cry
Tell me why
I can't live without your warm embrace

Why not one more night
One last kiss goodbye
My sweet love tonight
I hope the stars
Still spell out your name where you are

I close my eyes and you are everything I see
Goodbye

Goodbye to you my love
I won't forget you
I'll see you soon
Goodbye my love
Goodbye to you my love
I won't forget you
Bye, Bye love

If I ever get to see his cousin again, I must thank him. xD

Why the hell am I so short?

Was comparing leg length with Vivian and Timo in the library today. =.=

"How the hell do you run with your legs like that?" -- Timothy.

Yes, I am that short T.T

As usual, hating school holidays, other than the fact that I have more time to do my CS (and more time for PC2201 people to do their mind map xD)

Yep, the lead singer of System of A Down. Wondering if SOAD is metal or rock. >.<

The Unthinking Majority--Serj Tankian
We don't need your democracy
Execute them kindly for me
Take them by their filthy nostrils
Put them up in doggy hostels
We don't need your hypocrisy
Execute real democracy
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority

Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable
Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable

We don't need your hypocrisy
Execute real democracy
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority

Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable
Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable

We don't need your hypocrisy
Execute real democracy
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority
We don't need your hypocrisy
Execute real democracy.
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority

I believe that you're wrong
Insinuating they hold the bomb
Clearing the way for the oil brigade
Clearing the way for the oil brigade
I believe that you're wrong
Insinuating they hold the bomb
Clearing the way for the oil brigade
Clearing the way for the oil brigade

Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable
Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable
Anti-depressants
Controlling tools of your system
Making life more tolerable
Making life more tolerable

I believe that you're wrong
Insinuating they hold the bomb
Clearing the way for the oil brigade
Clearing the way for the oil brigade

We don't need your hypocrisy
Execute real democracy
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority
We don't need your democracy
Execute them kindly for me
Take them by their filthy nostrils
Put them up in doggie hostels
We don't need your hipocrisy
Execute real democracy
Post-industrial society
The unthinking majority

I believe that you're wrong
Insinuating they hold the bomb
Clearing the way for the oil brigade
Clearing the way for the oil brigade

Empty Walls--Serj Tankian
Your empty walls...
Your empty walls...
Pretentious attention
Dismissive apprehension
Don't waste your time, on coffins today
When we decline, from the confines of our mind
Don't waste your time, on coffins today

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

I want you
To be
Left behind those empty walls
Taunt you
To see
From behind those empty walls

Those empty walls
When we decline, from the confines of our mind
Don't waste your time, on coffins today

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

I want you
To be
Left behind those empty walls
Taunt you
To see
From behind those empty walls
Want you to be
Left behind those empty walls
Taunt you
To see
From behind those empty walls

From behind those empty walls
From behind those empty walls
The walls
From behind those empty walls

I loved you
Yesterday, before
You killed my family

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

Don't you see their bodies burning?
Desolate and full of yearning
Dying of anticipation
Choking from intoxication

I want you
To be
Left behind those empty walls
Taunt you
To see
From behind those empty walls
Want you to be, left behind those empty walls
Taunt you
To see
From behind those empty walls
From behind those empty walls
From behind those fucking walls
From behind those God damn walls
Those walls...
Those walls...

Praise the Lord and Pass the Ammunition--Serj Tankian
Come lay it down, wont you,
Come burn it down, can't you,
Lay it down, the guns above the ground
Come lay it down, wont you,
Come burn it down, can't you,
Lay it down, the guns above the ground

LIlith is a prophet
From the prophet came the king
From the king came the pauper
From the pauper came the swing
From the swing came creation
From creation came love,
You don't know what this love is all about,

Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,
Life affirming and our spiritual trust

Lay it down, wont you,
Come burn it down, can't you,
Lay it down, the guns above the ground

Lilith is a prophet
From the prophet came the king
From the king came the pauper
From the pauper came the swing
From the swing came creation
From creation came love,
You don't know what this love is all about,

Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,
Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,

Buddha, Mohammad and the Hindu
Lost 100
Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,
People still ask when will Armageddon begin,

Dragging my feet any longer through the
Pussy litter,
Dragging my feet any longer through the
Pussy litter,
Dragging my feet any longer through the
Pussy litter,

Lilith is a prophet
From the prophet came the king
From the king came the pauper
From the pauper came the swing
From the swing came creation
From creation came love,
You don't know what this love is all about,

Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,
Praise the Lord and pass the ammunition
Praise praise the Lord and pass the
Ammunition,

Do we ever have enough,
When we see that blue dove
Do we ever have enough
When we see that blue dove
We want to go where no ones been
No ones been

Come lay it down, wont you,
Come burn it down, can't you,
Lay it down, the guns above the ground
Wont you.

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