Thursday, February 28, 2008
Spam-post
@ 4:14 AM
http://www.futilitycloset.com/2007/07/31/the-long-view/If reincarnation was not true, I should say that reincarnation is a philosophical excuse for people to slack. But if it was true, then reincarnation sadly would be a truth disguised as pure fantasy, uncovered by those who wished to believe in it and those who have the courage and open mind to believe in it. It'll be like Einstein being willing to accept quantum physics, or not. I'm addicted to Mozart's Requiem.
Changing blogskin
@ 3:16 AM
amatorculist
n. a pitiful and insignificant lover Some random article I saw from this cool website called the Futility Closet. So I did get my pockey money still after all, but these days I kept overspending. T.T Mathemacians (like my friends) and physicists (like my dad and my friends) rock. So obviously I was actually interested with the assembly talk yesterday about the Singapore calender. Apparently he actually spent half an hour on the astronomy part (Yu Jia made me realise that), but somehow I don't really mind, for the polar bear was cute!!! The globe was actually dented :O The assembly talk led me to think about all those lectures that all those people loved to go to, about math and physics and stuff... http://www.futilitycloset.com/2005/09/03/death-tolls/Holy shit dude. I screwed up for my English Practise Test. The narrative was not even 600 words long, and at least 3/5 of the essay consists of conversation. Can see how screwed up it is, can't you? French was boring. Generally. After French Su Hang and me went to Mcdonalds for dinner, and I find myself talking around 95% of the time. Went to Big Bookshop after that, and you know what? BIG BOOKSHOP ROCKS! Ok so I found out that Big Bookshop is much more worth me to waste time there. I'm sorry, but that's how boring the Jurong East Popular can get sometimes. I do realise that I am sleeping at 11pm and waking up at around 1 or 2 am for 3 or more consecutive days. Shit. Me want change blogskin.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Boredom at its fullest
@ 2:41 PM
 ( screenshot of what I got when I wanted to watch South Park)Brought laptop, for I thought Ting they all have Student's Leaders Investiture, but no. =.= Apparently I stay in school only because I don't want to bring my laptop for fun. You must understand how effing heavy my laptop+laptop bag is. Yes, the laptop bag is even heavier than the laptop itself. =.= Currently my leg is swelling very very badly, because Ting was reaching out for the power point behind her in the canteen, and then the whole bench fell backwards. Guess I should cut my toenails soon. (Ow my leg is still hurting T.T) Great. From this morning onwards, I will be going to school by myself liao. ... Boredom at its fullest. Still wondering whether the timetable change is good or bad. Good thing is we are released early, bad thing is deciding what the hell we will do after we are released. Everyday I see people running at the track, and then I ask why the hell am I so not committed to running. Everyday I ask why the hell are we all so busy, so busy that we do not meet at all. I guess Su Hang and Uly are very busy too. Shall find the biohazard icon, learn the proportions of it, then draw it onto my GC battery cover. Ahaha. Yes I am bored, thank you. Sighs. Die for French class tomorrow I will. Ting Ting and Yan Sheng are going off for the Esplanade performance (which I don't think my parents will let me go). T.T Seems like this week is going to suck. Or maybe from this week onwards it will suck. " Everything will end soon."
Monday, February 25, 2008
...Screwed up.
@ 3:22 AM
Currently I feel very, very, very, screwed up.
Guess I have to obey the rules still...And I regret falling alseep. It's an ultimate mistake.
Another reason to feel screwed up is that I realised I'm left with no pocket money from tomorrow onwards. Well, good for those who are thinking that I'm a rich bitch.
Finished watching the interactive flash, the ending is very, very, very, weird. Currently am typing this crap and wondering where to find motivation to do Physics. Which is due...today! At 5pm! 0.5 hours after Chinese! SHIT!
*proceeds to play the World Maths Day thingo*
*screams in horror as no match is found*
With 1457 mathletes online...still no match found. Right. T.T
Weird Flash
@ 12:10 AM
I found this damn weird flash thingy...
http://www.hoteloscartangoecholima.com/splash.html??
Seems...like a collection of freaks. Only thing I hate about it is the stupid sound...I want to turn it off!!!
I don't want to sleep.
From today onwards I have to go to school myself. All by myself. Thanks mum.
"And everyday you fear that you will see what you don't wanna see when you reach home."
Sunday, February 24, 2008
No inspiration
@ 11:34 AM
Listening to
- Weight of the World--Evanescence
Wo.ots I copied Wei Ren who copied Kenneth. Muahahas. No inspiration these days for a poem... I bet my chinese poem skills suck like shit now. T.T And sorry Vivian, but I feel like changing blogskin again. This is what I call compulsive-blogskin-changing-disorder. Ahaha.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
*hugs dolphin*
@ 10:17 PM
I feel sleepy.
And I still feel happy.
Each day I wake up with a smile, for I know I'm still alive, for I know...(:
I'm sorry, but seriously. At least the tell-tale signs of friend being suicidal they had mentioned are so old-fashioned. Who will be so stupid to let their friends notice about them being...suicidal?
Ok if I carry on I will have some sort of "lecture" about the "interesting" talk, so I should just put it simply:
The.
Talk.
Is.
Weird.
Then mentoring. Tapped letters. Chaotic. Sianned out.
Break. Ate my lunch, which is a latte + "pao". Yay me. Then English, slacked like siao. Then 1 hour break (:
FPS was fun, it's drama, I got to shout, teacher said I'm a good actor, allowed me to get one more Mentos. Yong Kiat had "unstable" paper boobs. Bryan was "emo".
I feel sleepy. Like...gah. Don't even know what the hell I am typing into this machine. And...
I only eaten a pao+latte up to now. Yes, up to now. Nothing else, only pao+latte. So now I'm like...1kg less? Which makes me with only 1kg more to lose in order to reach 40kg. Yahoo.
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Monday, February 18, 2008
Crap.
@ 10:59 PM
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Shit
@ 7:39 PM
Shit, my habit of describing the day by lessons taken is back. >.< 1) Assembly: Zzz. 2) Math: Usual. 3) History: They are changing it back to Tuesday from next week onwards. Great. 4) Music: Screwed. 5) Break: Zzz. 6) Chem: Fun. 7) Free period: In library with Huiwen, Yu Jia and Michelle. Fun. 8) Chinese: The only one that holds my ego up (sorry). Which makes me rant about how useless it is to be pro in Chinese in this school. Summary:Screwed up. (2 words)Like...wow. I screwed up all my ****ing tests, 2 months had passed. Is it time to say goodbye to my CAP target?Someone tell me how the hell I am supposed to flunk my test and act as if nothing happened. You tell me how. YOU tell me how.YES I CRIED when I realise I screwed up for this test. YES I ALWAYS CRY if I realise I screw up my exams and tests. YES I AM A freaking cry-baby, come people mock at me. Like, "Oh lookies here, an idiot / a bitch / an idiotic bitch crying here as if her "cat" had died."YES I do not put in the ****ing effort and I still complain. YES I'm not responsible for my ****ing part in the project and I still complain.The days as a hypocrite are back. Like...this instant. This instant and every instant, I'm living as a hypocrite.Screw this I need to censor my blog so badly.They say abusive parents lead to abusive children. I give up.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Pick Up Lines
@ 6:21 PM
http://www.pickup-lines.info/stupid/
Trust me, some of them (some of them) are nice.
Someone help me T.T
Pluto Day
@ 10:07 AM
Yes, according to my calender, Pluto Day is tomorrow. Like...wow. Isn't there anything like Venus Day? I certainly would love to celebrate Venus Day.
The music assignment is driving me crazy. And I knew it! Woodlands Regional Library is much better than Jurong Regional Library. I believe the size of the library is the main cause. I KNEW IT! T.T So now I need someone to go there and help me find information about Alessandro Scarlatti and Wilhelm Friedmann Bach. Yes yes. T.T
Why am I staying so near the lousy library and so far away from the good library?
T.T Mum, why do you even bother to stay in such a small neighbourhood...
Saturday, February 16, 2008
(: (:
@ 3:20 PM
J'aime toi...Get well soon! Slept in the afternoon. Was really really tired. My mum liked the Nutella jam I recommended. Yes, it's the one at MOELC French Fair last time XD. I like Eminem's songs. Gah >.< EDIT: This song was heard during Biology class (You all know...right?), and I thought it's nice, so I shall post it here.
Free--Rachael Lampa
What would you say if I told you about
A love too good to be real?
Would you reply that you've heard it a million times?
Oh, you've thrown up your hands - never understand;
Turn and walk away, cry another tear.
I know where you're coming from, I was
Searching for the road that would lead me home
Where I'm free - free to believe what is real to me.
Free - free to believe that He lives in me!
La la la la la, la la la la la, free.
How would you feel if love fell in your arms
With the tenderness of a child?
Would you be able to finally open your eyes?
Oh, a love so strong it never begs - never borrows,
Never steals from anyone.
Even if I bend, even if I sway, even if I lose my way,
I will always come home
Where I'm free - free to believe what is real to me.
Free - free to believe that He lives in me!
La la la la la, la la la la la,
La la la la la, laa.
Free to love, free to dance, free to live your life with open
Hands that reach for the way - closer to the edge you hear the
Music play, awakening all that once was slumbering's alive again,
'Cause I'm free - free to believe what is real to me.
Free - free to believe that He lives in me!
La la la la la, la la la la la,
La la la, la la la, la la la, laa, yeah,
(Free) - free to believe what is real to me.
Free - free to believe that He lives in me!
Free, yea-yeah, free, la la la, la la la, laa, oh...
(Free) yeah, even if I bend, even if I sway, even if I lose, yeah,
Free, yeah (free)
Friday, February 15, 2008
Happy (:
@ 9:05 PM
Yesterday, I felt very very very happy.
Today, I also felt very very very happy.
Almost everyday I'm feeling very very very happy.
(: (: (:
Thanks, for it (:
Thanks, for everyday.
Thanks, for everything.
Thanks, for you. (:
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
XD
@ 7:48 PM
When i give instructions, I expect them to be followed. --by Mr Charles "Chucky the Kentucky Flied Chucken" Wong XD Nothing much to talk about...Sighs thank god the homework up to now is still managable, and amazingly my passion for Math is back. I actually was bothered to start doing Assignment 5. Angles! I like angles the most, I don't know why, but it's just fun finding out the degrees of the angle (You feel accomplished! >.<) Had loads of fun with Hilda during FPS break...we went to 206, 107, 106 classrooms outside, went in 101 classroom to enjoy aircon (they moved to 206 classroom because projector is spoilt, peeked at Groups 1 and 2 in the lower Auditorium using that little gap in the partition (which almost got my face squashed, and made us end up laughing like siao) "Laughter is the best medicine." becomes "Laughter is the best exercise." thanks to YS.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Frustrated
@ 10:02 PM
I feel frustrated.
Playing "Better Days" by Goo Goo Dolls on repeat.
Like...why am I feeling frustrated?! T.T
Monday, February 11, 2008
So what?
@ 7:28 PM
Since end of January, I'm generally happy.
And someone break it.
Thanks.
Apparently the internet is so transparent, it's freaky.
He's a freak.
I'm a freak.
Everyone's a freak. To me.
Which makes me the freak instead.
"I plagarise a lot. Like the way Sylar absorbs powers. I ABSORB THE WAYS PEOPLE BEHAVE, TALK. SO YOU DO SEE ME SAYING THINGS ONLY you SAY. I'M LIKE THAT SINCE PRIMARY 6, I AM SORRY, JUST HIT ME IN THE FACE NEXT TIME IF I SAY WHAT you USUALLY SAYS."
This form of "plaglarisation" is what made me scream and shout like an idiot today. Simply said, it's "peer pressure".
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Instincts do it. Again.
@ 10:35 AM
Time and again I hate myself for not following what my instincts (or maybe my 6th sense) had directed me.
This time my 6th sense did it again.
Only that he did not come online as it told me, he called me.
The reason I never liked to sleep. There you go.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
@ 9:46 PM
8 jackets.
From I.P. Zone.
Math Assignment 4.
Math extra Exercise.
Physics assignment 3.
Die liao.
Friday, February 8, 2008
Earphones
@ 2:29 PM
Two pairs of earphones. One pair of ears. Guess.
Doraemon
@ 1:38 PM
I watched Doraemon on Channel 8, from 10am-12pm.
Then slept. Till 1.20pm. With it.
沉睡的天鹅，何时才会苏醒过来？难道这漫长等待，都只为了一个空虚的梦？!
沉睡的天鹅，难道你早已忘记了，那天我们分离前，所许下的海誓山盟？
一天如一年，一年又如一天，眨眼间，漫长的等待瞬间变成了一丝希望。
唯一的希望。
记得那天，你说过，你会好好的打扮打扮，穿着娘为你织的新衣，漂漂亮亮的欢迎我回来。
记得那天，你说过，你会耐心的让时间流逝，就为了等我回来?
To be continued (I hope).
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
T.T Nooo...
@ 4:37 PM
Eportfolio's screwed?!
Today's stall was much better than I expected. Thought I would screw it up totally.
The teachers I've got to my stall are: Li Liangzi, Mr Toh, Mr Lee, Ms Lim, Ms Kong, 董老师......and don't know who. Only know I managed to get a lot of people to come to my stall =D. I can still memorise what I told them when I dragged them to my stall:
"Good morning blah blah blah, would you like to look at our stall? Our stall is paper cutting, and you can choose from 4 designs. So you choose the one you like the most, then we would give you the template and then you cut it. After that you can paste it onto a yellow piece of paper, and then you can bring it home to decorate your house. Also you can get a mouse for free! While stocks last! You want you want?" XDD
Mr Lee was like...I thought it's the HP mouse?
Yuan Han's group got something like...you throw a dart then you aim for a number, if you get dunno what number then you get dunno what question thing. First time I threw I got an 8, but got nothing (I tried to answer a question, they say got sweet, I get no sweet=.=). After some while I throw again I got a 10. I got to water-bomb Yuan Han =O
So apparently those who get 10 can water-bomb him. Wonder why he would sacrifice himself for something like that. Poor Yuan Han...Anyway he managed to dodge all three, good for him (:
Which reminds me. Stupid Jun Yi poured water onto me.
I ended up chasing him about, screaming at the same time. Thanks Esther and Amanda and Yan Sheng who managed to cool me down =)
Left school at 11+am, went to McDonalds and crap, then take MRT train. I'm supposed to stop at Jurong East, but decided to follow YS, Amanda, Hilda and Le Yi (sorry if I spell wrongly) on the train towards Woodlands. After that went to Causeway Point. It's not as small as I thought anyway.
Took the train back at 2+pm. Fell asleep. Ended up it terminated at Jurong East, no one woke me up, so I naturally "went back" towards Woodlands. Only realised it when I heard Marsiling in my sleep. Reached home at 3.40pm.
*I still feel happy, and shall always be happy.*
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Depressed (since don't know when)
@ 7:35 PM
Thanks to 96.3FM, I was feeling emo.
Thanks to Josephine, for getting a new song stuck in my head.
Thanks to my mum, for letting me pierce my ears (ok that's old).
EDIT:
I'm feeling depressed after don't-know-how-many-days of cheerfulness. I'm feeling fucking depressed, the world's over. Can you hear the world yelling at us? Can you hear the trees screaming in pain? Can you hear the nature crying in dismay?
What has the world become? What have we become? What does the future hold for us? A brighter path for us to admit our mistakes and turn back when we can, or a darker path for us to realise that we fucking brought it over ourselves, and we can wallow all we want, as we await our doom?
I still want to believe that the world can be saved. But is it even possible? Have we even started? Have we even knew about it?
Do we even care?
Have I even care?
No. And here I am, scolding the whole world when I myself don't even fucking know how to eat properly, right? I suck so much I seriously need to go get a life right? I'm such a hypocrite that I don't even exist as a human being right? I just suck so much that I blind your eyes when you see me, deafen your ears when I speak a word only right?
Then just screw me up and walk off!
Monday, February 4, 2008
*Screwed up in advance*
@ 8:40 PM
I'm screwed for my Biology. AND Chinese New Year stall. Great. And I'm still blogging! Like wow...=.=
Realised my blogskin sucks. I so am going to get a black and white one next time.
Apologise
@ 12:26 AM
Ok the smart video blocked everything out. I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..
That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah
I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Just Lose It
@ 3:49 PM
Eminem - Just Lose ItAdd to My Profile | More Videos"Just Lose It"
[Intro]
[Eminem making sounds:]
Down, down, down, down, down, down, down, down, down, down!
Ok..
Guess who's back?
Back again
Shady's back
Tell a friend
Whaaaaaaaa
Now everyone report to the dance floor
To the dance floor, to the dance floor
Now everyone report to the dance floor
Alright Stop!.....Pajama time
[Verse 1]
Come here little kiddies, On my lap
Guess who's back with a brand new rap?
And I don't mean rap as in a new case of child molestation accusation
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
No worries, papa's got a brand new bag of toys
What else could I possibly do to make noise?
I done touched on everything, but little boys
That's not a stab at Michael
That's just a metaphor, I'm just psycho
I go a little bit crazy sometimes
I get a little bit out of control with my rhymes
Good God, dip, do a little slide
Bend down, touch your toes and just glide
Up the center of the dance floor
Like TP for my bunghole
And it's cool if you let one go
Nobody's gonna know, who'd hear it?
Give a little "poot poot", it's OK! [Fart Sound]
Oops my CD just skipped
And everyone just heard you let one rip
[Chorus]
Now I'm gonna make you dance
It's your chance
Yeah boy shake that ass
Oops I mean girl girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world
Alright now lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Just lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Go crazy
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Oh baby
(HA-HA)
Oh baby, baby
(HA-HA)
[Verse 2]
Well, it's Friday and it's my day
Just to party all the way to Sunday
Maybe 'til Monday, I dunno what day
Everyday's just a holiday
Crusin' on the freeway
Feelin' kinda breezy
Got the top down, lettin' my hair blow
I dunno where I'm goin'
All I know is when I get there
Someone's gonna "touch my body"
Excuse me miss, I don't mean to sound like a jerk
But I'm feelin' just a little stressed out from work
Could you punch me in the stomach and pull my hair?
Spit on me, maybe gouge my eyes out? (Yeah)
Now, what's your name girl?
What's your sign?
[Dr Dre] "Man, you must be up out your mind"
DRE! (HA-HA)
Beer Goggles! Blind!
I'm just tryna unwind now I'm
[Chorus]
Now I'm gonna make you dance
It's your chance
Yeah boy shake that ass
Oops I mean girl girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world
Alright now lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Just lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Go crazy
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Oh baby
(HA-HA)
Oh baby, baby
(HA-HA)
[Verse 3]
It's Tuesday and I'm locked up
I'm in jail and I don't know what happened
They say I was running butt naked
Down the street screaming
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Well I'm sorry, I don't remember
All I know is this much
I'm not guilty
They said, "Save it, boy we gotcha you on tape
yellin' at an old lady 'Touch my body!'"
Now this is the part where the rap breaks down
It gets real intense, no one makes a sound
Everything looks like it's 8 Mile now
The beat comes back and everybody lose themselves
Snap back to reality
Look it's B.Rabbit!
Yo you signed me up to battle!?
I'm a grown man!
Chubba chubba chubba chubba chubba chubbie
I don't have any lines to go right here so, chubba teletubbie!
Fella's (WHAT?!) Fella's (WHAT?!)
Grab you left nut, make your right one jealous (what?)
Black girls
White girls
Skinny girls
Fat girls
Tall girls
Small girls
I'm callin' all girls
Everyone report to the dance floor
It's your chance for a little romance or
Butt squeezin' it's the season
Just go (HA-HA-HA-HA)
It's so appeasin'
[Chorus]
Now I'm gonna make you dance
It's your chance
Yeah boy shake that ass
Oops I mean girl girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world
Alright now lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Just lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Go crazy
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Oh baby
(HA-HA)
Oh baby, baby
(HA-HA)
[Outro]
UmMmMmm touch my body
UmMmMmm touch my body
Ooh boy just touch my body
I mean girl just touch my body
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Falling down
@ 9:44 PM
This is all falling down on me. The pieces of truth fall on me like shattered glass, sending me cuts and injuries which I can't even see, for I'm blind; which I can't even feel, for I'm numb.
Random.
Bye.
About the Author
Writing my life story with my blood and tears
* Name: Tan Yong Ying
* School: NUS High School of Math & Science
* Class: M07106, M08206, M09304
* House: Faraday
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Spam-post
@ 4:14 AM
http://www.futilitycloset.com/2007/07/31/the-long-view/If reincarnation was not true, I should say that reincarnation is a philosophical excuse for people to slack. But if it was true, then reincarnation sadly would be a truth disguised as pure fantasy, uncovered by those who wished to believe in it and those who have the courage and open mind to believe in it. It'll be like Einstein being willing to accept quantum physics, or not. I'm addicted to Mozart's Requiem.
Changing blogskin
@ 3:16 AM
amatorculist
n. a pitiful and insignificant lover Some random article I saw from this cool website called the Futility Closet. So I did get my pockey money still after all, but these days I kept overspending. T.T Mathemacians (like my friends) and physicists (like my dad and my friends) rock. So obviously I was actually interested with the assembly talk yesterday about the Singapore calender. Apparently he actually spent half an hour on the astronomy part (Yu Jia made me realise that), but somehow I don't really mind, for the polar bear was cute!!! The globe was actually dented :O The assembly talk led me to think about all those lectures that all those people loved to go to, about math and physics and stuff... http://www.futilitycloset.com/2005/09/03/death-tolls/Holy shit dude. I screwed up for my English Practise Test. The narrative was not even 600 words long, and at least 3/5 of the essay consists of conversation. Can see how screwed up it is, can't you? French was boring. Generally. After French Su Hang and me went to Mcdonalds for dinner, and I find myself talking around 95% of the time. Went to Big Bookshop after that, and you know what? BIG BOOKSHOP ROCKS! Ok so I found out that Big Bookshop is much more worth me to waste time there. I'm sorry, but that's how boring the Jurong East Popular can get sometimes. I do realise that I am sleeping at 11pm and waking up at around 1 or 2 am for 3 or more consecutive days. Shit. Me want change blogskin.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Boredom at its fullest
@ 2:41 PM
( screenshot of what I got when I wanted to watch South Park)Brought laptop, for I thought Ting they all have Student's Leaders Investiture, but no. =.= Apparently I stay in school only because I don't want to bring my laptop for fun. You must understand how effing heavy my laptop+laptop bag is. Yes, the laptop bag is even heavier than the laptop itself. =.= Currently my leg is swelling very very badly, because Ting was reaching out for the power point behind her in the canteen, and then the whole bench fell backwards. Guess I should cut my toenails soon. (Ow my leg is still hurting T.T) Great. From this morning onwards, I will be going to school by myself liao. ... Boredom at its fullest. Still wondering whether the timetable change is good or bad. Good thing is we are released early, bad thing is deciding what the hell we will do after we are released. Everyday I see people running at the track, and then I ask why the hell am I so not committed to running. Everyday I ask why the hell are we all so busy, so busy that we do not meet at all. I guess Su Hang and Uly are very busy too. Shall find the biohazard icon, learn the proportions of it, then draw it onto my GC battery cover. Ahaha. Yes I am bored, thank you. Sighs. Die for French class tomorrow I will. Ting Ting and Yan Sheng are going off for the Esplanade performance (which I don't think my parents will let me go). T.T Seems like this week is going to suck. Or maybe from this week onwards it will suck. " Everything will end soon."
Monday, February 25, 2008
...Screwed up.
@ 3:22 AM
Currently I feel very, very, very, screwed up.
Guess I have to obey the rules still...And I regret falling alseep. It's an ultimate mistake.
Another reason to feel screwed up is that I realised I'm left with no pocket money from tomorrow onwards. Well, good for those who are thinking that I'm a rich bitch.
Finished watching the interactive flash, the ending is very, very, very, weird. Currently am typing this crap and wondering where to find motivation to do Physics. Which is due...today! At 5pm! 0.5 hours after Chinese! SHIT!
*proceeds to play the World Maths Day thingo*
*screams in horror as no match is found*
With 1457 mathletes online...still no match found. Right. T.T
Weird Flash
@ 12:10 AM
I found this damn weird flash thingy...
http://www.hoteloscartangoecholima.com/splash.html??
Seems...like a collection of freaks. Only thing I hate about it is the stupid sound...I want to turn it off!!!
I don't want to sleep.
From today onwards I have to go to school myself. All by myself. Thanks mum.
"And everyday you fear that you will see what you don't wanna see when you reach home."
Sunday, February 24, 2008
No inspiration
@ 11:34 AM
Listening to
- Weight of the World--Evanescence
Wo.ots I copied Wei Ren who copied Kenneth. Muahahas. No inspiration these days for a poem... I bet my chinese poem skills suck like shit now. T.T And sorry Vivian, but I feel like changing blogskin again. This is what I call compulsive-blogskin-changing-disorder. Ahaha.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
*hugs dolphin*
@ 10:17 PM
I feel sleepy.
And I still feel happy.
Each day I wake up with a smile, for I know I'm still alive, for I know...(:
I'm sorry, but seriously. At least the tell-tale signs of friend being suicidal they had mentioned are so old-fashioned. Who will be so stupid to let their friends notice about them being...suicidal?
Ok if I carry on I will have some sort of "lecture" about the "interesting" talk, so I should just put it simply:
The.
Talk.
Is.
Weird.
Then mentoring. Tapped letters. Chaotic. Sianned out.
Break. Ate my lunch, which is a latte + "pao". Yay me. Then English, slacked like siao. Then 1 hour break (:
FPS was fun, it's drama, I got to shout, teacher said I'm a good actor, allowed me to get one more Mentos. Yong Kiat had "unstable" paper boobs. Bryan was "emo".
I feel sleepy. Like...gah. Don't even know what the hell I am typing into this machine. And...
I only eaten a pao+latte up to now. Yes, up to now. Nothing else, only pao+latte. So now I'm like...1kg less? Which makes me with only 1kg more to lose in order to reach 40kg. Yahoo.
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Monday, February 18, 2008
Crap.
@ 10:59 PM
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Shit
@ 7:39 PM
Shit, my habit of describing the day by lessons taken is back. >.< 1) Assembly: Zzz. 2) Math: Usual. 3) History: They are changing it back to Tuesday from next week onwards. Great. 4) Music: Screwed. 5) Break: Zzz. 6) Chem: Fun. 7) Free period: In library with Huiwen, Yu Jia and Michelle. Fun. 8) Chinese: The only one that holds my ego up (sorry). Which makes me rant about how useless it is to be pro in Chinese in this school. Summary:Screwed up. (2 words)Like...wow. I screwed up all my ****ing tests, 2 months had passed. Is it time to say goodbye to my CAP target?Someone tell me how the hell I am supposed to flunk my test and act as if nothing happened. You tell me how. YOU tell me how.YES I CRIED when I realise I screwed up for this test. YES I ALWAYS CRY if I realise I screw up my exams and tests. YES I AM A freaking cry-baby, come people mock at me. Like, "Oh lookies here, an idiot / a bitch / an idiotic bitch crying here as if her "cat" had died."YES I do not put in the ****ing effort and I still complain. YES I'm not responsible for my ****ing part in the project and I still complain.The days as a hypocrite are back. Like...this instant. This instant and every instant, I'm living as a hypocrite.Screw this I need to censor my blog so badly.They say abusive parents lead to abusive children. I give up.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Pick Up Lines
@ 6:21 PM
http://www.pickup-lines.info/stupid/
Trust me, some of them (some of them) are nice.
Someone help me T.T
Pluto Day
@ 10:07 AM
Yes, according to my calender, Pluto Day is tomorrow. Like...wow. Isn't there anything like Venus Day? I certainly would love to celebrate Venus Day.
The music assignment is driving me crazy. And I knew it! Woodlands Regional Library is much better than Jurong Regional Library. I believe the size of the library is the main cause. I KNEW IT! T.T So now I need someone to go there and help me find information about Alessandro Scarlatti and Wilhelm Friedmann Bach. Yes yes. T.T
Why am I staying so near the lousy library and so far away from the good library?
T.T Mum, why do you even bother to stay in such a small neighbourhood...
Saturday, February 16, 2008
(: (:
@ 3:20 PM
J'aime toi...Get well soon! Slept in the afternoon. Was really really tired. My mum liked the Nutella jam I recommended. Yes, it's the one at MOELC French Fair last time XD. I like Eminem's songs. Gah >.< EDIT: This song was heard during Biology class (You all know...right?), and I thought it's nice, so I shall post it here.
Free--Rachael Lampa
What would you say if I told you about
A love too good to be real?
Would you reply that you've heard it a million times?
Oh, you've thrown up your hands - never understand;
Turn and walk away, cry another tear.
I know where you're coming from, I was
Searching for the road that would lead me home
Where I'm free - free to believe what is real to me.
Free - free to believe that He lives in me!
La la la la la, la la la la la, free.
How would you feel if love fell in your arms
With the tenderness of a child?
Would you be able to finally open your eyes?
Oh, a love so strong it never begs - never borrows,
Never steals from anyone.
Even if I bend, even if I sway, even if I lose my way,
I will always come home
Where I'm free - free to believe what is real to me.
Free - free to believe that He lives in me!
La la la la la, la la la la la,
La la la la la, laa.
Free to love, free to dance, free to live your life with open
Hands that reach for the way - closer to the edge you hear the
Music play, awakening all that once was slumbering's alive again,
'Cause I'm free - free to believe what is real to me.
Free - free to believe that He lives in me!
La la la la la, la la la la la,
La la la, la la la, la la la, laa, yeah,
(Free) - free to believe what is real to me.
Free - free to believe that He lives in me!
Free, yea-yeah, free, la la la, la la la, laa, oh...
(Free) yeah, even if I bend, even if I sway, even if I lose, yeah,
Free, yeah (free)
Friday, February 15, 2008
Happy (:
@ 9:05 PM
Yesterday, I felt very very very happy.
Today, I also felt very very very happy.
Almost everyday I'm feeling very very very happy.
(: (: (:
Thanks, for it (:
Thanks, for everyday.
Thanks, for everything.
Thanks, for you. (:
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
XD
@ 7:48 PM
When i give instructions, I expect them to be followed. --by Mr Charles "Chucky the Kentucky Flied Chucken" Wong XD Nothing much to talk about...Sighs thank god the homework up to now is still managable, and amazingly my passion for Math is back. I actually was bothered to start doing Assignment 5. Angles! I like angles the most, I don't know why, but it's just fun finding out the degrees of the angle (You feel accomplished! >.<) Had loads of fun with Hilda during FPS break...we went to 206, 107, 106 classrooms outside, went in 101 classroom to enjoy aircon (they moved to 206 classroom because projector is spoilt, peeked at Groups 1 and 2 in the lower Auditorium using that little gap in the partition (which almost got my face squashed, and made us end up laughing like siao) "Laughter is the best medicine." becomes "Laughter is the best exercise." thanks to YS.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Frustrated
@ 10:02 PM
I feel frustrated.
Playing "Better Days" by Goo Goo Dolls on repeat.
Like...why am I feeling frustrated?! T.T
Monday, February 11, 2008
So what?
@ 7:28 PM
Since end of January, I'm generally happy.
And someone break it.
Thanks.
Apparently the internet is so transparent, it's freaky.
He's a freak.
I'm a freak.
Everyone's a freak. To me.
Which makes me the freak instead.
"I plagarise a lot. Like the way Sylar absorbs powers. I ABSORB THE WAYS PEOPLE BEHAVE, TALK. SO YOU DO SEE ME SAYING THINGS ONLY you SAY. I'M LIKE THAT SINCE PRIMARY 6, I AM SORRY, JUST HIT ME IN THE FACE NEXT TIME IF I SAY WHAT you USUALLY SAYS."
This form of "plaglarisation" is what made me scream and shout like an idiot today. Simply said, it's "peer pressure".
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Instincts do it. Again.
@ 10:35 AM
Time and again I hate myself for not following what my instincts (or maybe my 6th sense) had directed me.
This time my 6th sense did it again.
Only that he did not come online as it told me, he called me.
The reason I never liked to sleep. There you go.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
@ 9:46 PM
8 jackets.
From I.P. Zone.
Math Assignment 4.
Math extra Exercise.
Physics assignment 3.
Die liao.
Friday, February 8, 2008
Earphones
@ 2:29 PM
Two pairs of earphones. One pair of ears. Guess.
Doraemon
@ 1:38 PM
I watched Doraemon on Channel 8, from 10am-12pm.
Then slept. Till 1.20pm. With it.
沉睡的天鹅，何时才会苏醒过来？难道这漫长等待，都只为了一个空虚的梦？!
沉睡的天鹅，难道你早已忘记了，那天我们分离前，所许下的海誓山盟？
一天如一年，一年又如一天，眨眼间，漫长的等待瞬间变成了一丝希望。
唯一的希望。
记得那天，你说过，你会好好的打扮打扮，穿着娘为你织的新衣，漂漂亮亮的欢迎我回来。
记得那天，你说过，你会耐心的让时间流逝，就为了等我回来?
To be continued (I hope).
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
T.T Nooo...
@ 4:37 PM
Eportfolio's screwed?!
Today's stall was much better than I expected. Thought I would screw it up totally.
The teachers I've got to my stall are: Li Liangzi, Mr Toh, Mr Lee, Ms Lim, Ms Kong, 董老师......and don't know who. Only know I managed to get a lot of people to come to my stall =D. I can still memorise what I told them when I dragged them to my stall:
"Good morning blah blah blah, would you like to look at our stall? Our stall is paper cutting, and you can choose from 4 designs. So you choose the one you like the most, then we would give you the template and then you cut it. After that you can paste it onto a yellow piece of paper, and then you can bring it home to decorate your house. Also you can get a mouse for free! While stocks last! You want you want?" XDD
Mr Lee was like...I thought it's the HP mouse?
Yuan Han's group got something like...you throw a dart then you aim for a number, if you get dunno what number then you get dunno what question thing. First time I threw I got an 8, but got nothing (I tried to answer a question, they say got sweet, I get no sweet=.=). After some while I throw again I got a 10. I got to water-bomb Yuan Han =O
So apparently those who get 10 can water-bomb him. Wonder why he would sacrifice himself for something like that. Poor Yuan Han...Anyway he managed to dodge all three, good for him (:
Which reminds me. Stupid Jun Yi poured water onto me.
I ended up chasing him about, screaming at the same time. Thanks Esther and Amanda and Yan Sheng who managed to cool me down =)
Left school at 11+am, went to McDonalds and crap, then take MRT train. I'm supposed to stop at Jurong East, but decided to follow YS, Amanda, Hilda and Le Yi (sorry if I spell wrongly) on the train towards Woodlands. After that went to Causeway Point. It's not as small as I thought anyway.
Took the train back at 2+pm. Fell asleep. Ended up it terminated at Jurong East, no one woke me up, so I naturally "went back" towards Woodlands. Only realised it when I heard Marsiling in my sleep. Reached home at 3.40pm.
*I still feel happy, and shall always be happy.*
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Depressed (since don't know when)
@ 7:35 PM
Thanks to 96.3FM, I was feeling emo.
Thanks to Josephine, for getting a new song stuck in my head.
Thanks to my mum, for letting me pierce my ears (ok that's old).
EDIT:
I'm feeling depressed after don't-know-how-many-days of cheerfulness. I'm feeling fucking depressed, the world's over. Can you hear the world yelling at us? Can you hear the trees screaming in pain? Can you hear the nature crying in dismay?
What has the world become? What have we become? What does the future hold for us? A brighter path for us to admit our mistakes and turn back when we can, or a darker path for us to realise that we fucking brought it over ourselves, and we can wallow all we want, as we await our doom?
I still want to believe that the world can be saved. But is it even possible? Have we even started? Have we even knew about it?
Do we even care?
Have I even care?
No. And here I am, scolding the whole world when I myself don't even fucking know how to eat properly, right? I suck so much I seriously need to go get a life right? I'm such a hypocrite that I don't even exist as a human being right? I just suck so much that I blind your eyes when you see me, deafen your ears when I speak a word only right?
Then just screw me up and walk off!
Monday, February 4, 2008
*Screwed up in advance*
@ 8:40 PM
I'm screwed for my Biology. AND Chinese New Year stall. Great. And I'm still blogging! Like wow...=.=
Realised my blogskin sucks. I so am going to get a black and white one next time.
Apologise
@ 12:26 AM
Ok the smart video blocked everything out. I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..
That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah
It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah
I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Just Lose It
@ 3:49 PM
Eminem - Just Lose ItAdd to My Profile | More Videos"Just Lose It"
[Intro]
[Eminem making sounds:]
Down, down, down, down, down, down, down, down, down, down!
Ok..
Guess who's back?
Back again
Shady's back
Tell a friend
Whaaaaaaaa
Now everyone report to the dance floor
To the dance floor, to the dance floor
Now everyone report to the dance floor
Alright Stop!.....Pajama time
[Verse 1]
Come here little kiddies, On my lap
Guess who's back with a brand new rap?
And I don't mean rap as in a new case of child molestation accusation
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
No worries, papa's got a brand new bag of toys
What else could I possibly do to make noise?
I done touched on everything, but little boys
That's not a stab at Michael
That's just a metaphor, I'm just psycho
I go a little bit crazy sometimes
I get a little bit out of control with my rhymes
Good God, dip, do a little slide
Bend down, touch your toes and just glide
Up the center of the dance floor
Like TP for my bunghole
And it's cool if you let one go
Nobody's gonna know, who'd hear it?
Give a little "poot poot", it's OK! [Fart Sound]
Oops my CD just skipped
And everyone just heard you let one rip
[Chorus]
Now I'm gonna make you dance
It's your chance
Yeah boy shake that ass
Oops I mean girl girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world
Alright now lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Just lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Go crazy
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Oh baby
(HA-HA)
Oh baby, baby
(HA-HA)
[Verse 2]
Well, it's Friday and it's my day
Just to party all the way to Sunday
Maybe 'til Monday, I dunno what day
Everyday's just a holiday
Crusin' on the freeway
Feelin' kinda breezy
Got the top down, lettin' my hair blow
I dunno where I'm goin'
All I know is when I get there
Someone's gonna "touch my body"
Excuse me miss, I don't mean to sound like a jerk
But I'm feelin' just a little stressed out from work
Could you punch me in the stomach and pull my hair?
Spit on me, maybe gouge my eyes out? (Yeah)
Now, what's your name girl?
What's your sign?
[Dr Dre] "Man, you must be up out your mind"
DRE! (HA-HA)
Beer Goggles! Blind!
I'm just tryna unwind now I'm
[Chorus]
Now I'm gonna make you dance
It's your chance
Yeah boy shake that ass
Oops I mean girl girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world
Alright now lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Just lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Go crazy
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Oh baby
(HA-HA)
Oh baby, baby
(HA-HA)
[Verse 3]
It's Tuesday and I'm locked up
I'm in jail and I don't know what happened
They say I was running butt naked
Down the street screaming
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Well I'm sorry, I don't remember
All I know is this much
I'm not guilty
They said, "Save it, boy we gotcha you on tape
yellin' at an old lady 'Touch my body!'"
Now this is the part where the rap breaks down
It gets real intense, no one makes a sound
Everything looks like it's 8 Mile now
The beat comes back and everybody lose themselves
Snap back to reality
Look it's B.Rabbit!
Yo you signed me up to battle!?
I'm a grown man!
Chubba chubba chubba chubba chubba chubbie
I don't have any lines to go right here so, chubba teletubbie!
Fella's (WHAT?!) Fella's (WHAT?!)
Grab you left nut, make your right one jealous (what?)
Black girls
White girls
Skinny girls
Fat girls
Tall girls
Small girls
I'm callin' all girls
Everyone report to the dance floor
It's your chance for a little romance or
Butt squeezin' it's the season
Just go (HA-HA-HA-HA)
It's so appeasin'
[Chorus]
Now I'm gonna make you dance
It's your chance
Yeah boy shake that ass
Oops I mean girl girl girl girl
Girl you know you're my world
Alright now lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Just lose it
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Go crazy
(HA-HA-HA-HA-HA)
Oh baby
(HA-HA)
Oh baby, baby
(HA-HA)
[Outro]
UmMmMmm touch my body
UmMmMmm touch my body
Ooh boy just touch my body
I mean girl just touch my body
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Falling down
@ 9:44 PM
This is all falling down on me. The pieces of truth fall on me like shattered glass, sending me cuts and injuries which I can't even see, for I'm blind; which I can't even feel, for I'm numb.
Random.
Bye.
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