Monday, December 29, 2008
@ 11:12 PM
Finally someone slapped me other than someone else. Am I supposed to be honoured?
I feel betrayed. But I did that to you, so it doesn't matter, does it.
I don't matter to you. I don't matter to anyone (except my dad, that I can totally be sure).
For the rest? What do you want me to build it on? Myself?
I can't have space for many. That sucks, doesn't it.
That space shrunk. Even more today too!
You know what?
If this is a way of letting me hate you, you've fucking succeeded. Now what can you get? Nothing. You always lived with nothing anyway, so it doens't matter too, does it?
It's not like I can help in anyway, yet I still bothered.
You don't need me, that I know. I was the wrong one, YET AGAIN, that I try to know.
Done with slapping me? Then screw off. Don't try to pull me into whatever crap you have. For one thing I am not in the same year as you or that person, I don't even know that person well, you expect me to stop my life completely for that?!
Other than in Math, certainty is bullshit. Very certain that it's positive? Think again. Someone out there is always making sure you have a hell of time.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Oreo cookies
@ 10:10 PM
With the way the world is in right now, I personally would like to use the word "peace" as a substitute for "impossible". Even impossibilities aren't that impossible, unlike peace. How screwed indeed.
I come in peace and oreo cookies. (?)
Betrayal everywhere. It doesn't matter how much trust you have, what matters is the impact of the fall.
All but two have shown me that more trust makes you fall harder. That's all.
At least oreo cookies are delicious both in and out, ok.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
@ 7:17 PM
WHY THE FUCK DO I DESERVE THIS?
LOLOL
@ 5:10 PM
J: That be me, you nub.
A: That be Amanda.
J: For some reason I fell asleep on the car when i saw [someone]'s smiling face in my mind. -.-
A: It must look so boring that your body immediately reacted by falling asleep. XD
J: LOLOL try telling [someone] that LOL.
It's damn funny I tell you.
Friday, December 26, 2008
So it is true
@ 8:58 PM
THAT JAY CHOU GOT A MERCEDES SLR722.
ARGH.
I WANT.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Class reshuffle?
@ 8:47 PM
More like entertainment lar.
The advantage of not knowing my class? I get the last laugh. Meanwhile I shall marvel at the various dramas we are getting in show for the next 2 years.
EDIT: Though I am not in 309 yet, I say that 309 is made up of 100% concentrated pwnage.
So there. :D
Friday, December 19, 2008
Hi.
@ 9:49 PM
I am in love with Bella's lullaby. It's so...beautiful. T.T
Friday, December 12, 2008
Boredom explains itself.
@ 7:40 PM
List 22 random songs. - Hardware Store--"Weird Al" Yankovic
- 路小雨--不能说的秘密(电影原声带)
- Toccata No.4 in D Minor, BWV 913--J.S. Bach
- By Myself Demo 2--Linkin Park
- 搁浅--周杰伦
- Avarice--Disturbed
- The Little Things Give You Away--Linkin Park
- I Don't Love You--My Chemical Romance
- No Roads Left--Linkin Park
- Gethsemane--Nightwish
- Falling--Staind
- 斗琴--不能说的秘密(电影原声带)
- Spotlight [Twilight Mix]--Twilight [Original Soundtrack]
- アントワネットブルー ～D・Gray-man Ending Ver.～--北出菜奈
- BWV 893 - Das Wolhtemperierte Clavier II - Prelude and Fugue No.24 in B minor--J.S. Bach
- Polonaise Op.40 No.1 in A major ("Military")--Chopin
- In The End--The String Quartet
- 园游会--周杰伦
- Vicinity of Obscenity--System of A Down
- Know--System of A Down
- Op.90, Piano Sonata no.27 in E minor, II. Nicht zu geschwind und sehr singbar vorzutragen--Beethoven
- Above The Winter Moonlight--Dragonforce
1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" you say? Ans: Hardware Store. Interesting. 2. How would you describe yourself? Ans: 路小雨 I am so NOT like her in the movie. -.- 3. What do you like in a guy/girl? Ans: Toccata No.4 in D Minor, BWV 913 Piano :D 4. How do you feel today? Ans: By Myself Demo 2 Not only today, hello. 5. What is your life's purpose? Ans: 搁浅 Purpose is to die? 6. What is your motto? Ans: Avarice "I'll savor, this anger My hate makes, me stronger" --> Awesome. 7. What do your friends think of you? Ans: The Little Things Give You Away How true. 8. What do you think of your parents? Ans: I Don't Love You What. The. Hell. 9. What do you think about very often? Ans: No Roads Left What. The. Hell. 10. What is 2 + 2? Ans: Gethsemane No sense whatsoever. Bye bye. 11. What do you think of your best friend? Ans: Falling You are NOT serious. 12. What do you think of the guy/girl you like? Ans: 斗琴 ...What. The. Hell. x 23875672 times 13. What is your life story? Ans: Spotlight [Twilight Mix] Unless it's Math, Chinese or running, no I don't want to be in the spotlight. 14. What do you want to be when you grow up? Ans: アントワネットブルー ～D・Gray-man Ending Ver.～ Let's just say it's blah, and leave it there, shall we? 15. What do you think of when you see the person you like? Ans: BWV 893 - Das Wolhtemperierte Clavier II - Prelude and Fugue No.24 in B minor Unbelievable. 16. What will you dance to at your wedding? Ans: Polonaise Op.40 No.1 in A major ("Military") I DO NOT WANT TO COMMENT ANYMORE. 17. What will they play at your funeral? Ans: In The End Thanks, I would love that song. 18. What is your hobby/interest? Ans: 园游会 Is there any in Singapore in the first place. 19. What is your biggest fear? Ans: Vicinity of Obscenity Eh? I swear and tell sick jokes like...a lot? 20. What is your biggest secret? Ans: Know Nice. 21. What do you think of your friends? Ans: Op.90, Piano Sonata no.27 in E minor, II. Nicht zu geschwind und sehr singbar vorzutragen Now every single person around me has become piano pieces?! 22. What will you post this as? Ans: Above The Winter Moonlight Cool.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
@ 9:01 AM
No one understands how I am dying. No one. There is no way I can trust anyone anymore.
I just want to find someone to trust myself on. No way. So foolish. So naive.
Of course, I wasn't worth the effort and time. Since when?
You don't want me hurt? You never mean it.
Or am I just turning more into my mum?
No one gets it, because no one gets the 'my mum' part. Even if I wish someone could help me, that someone is unavailable. I don't even think that someone will see my blog anymore.
You will not bother to console me anymore.
Who was the one who said last time, to call you if I need to?
Or perhaps, the hurt caused by you need NOT by healed by you? Are you pushing the responsibility of healing me to others?
Then might as well say you don't know me. Fine.
You hate me, don't you. I know I am a bitch. I know I am not worth it. Simply not.
So no matter how hard I try to read math, no matter how hard I try to get it, no matter how hard I supress myself from screaming at you for 9 days, it doesn't matter to anyone?
Fine.
I know I am not worth it. Stop your "not-saying-anything" fucking bullshit just to hide those words from me. Stupid, clumsy, fierece, violent, vulgar, useless, cheap, flirty. What else.
I am foolish lar.
You expect me to well, read research papers for 24/7 for the whole of the fucking school holidays? Fine.
Since you don't bother to console me anymore, fine. That means you will approve of me dying lar. You don't bother anyway, so it does not make a difference.
I hate myself.
About the Author
Writing my life story with my blood and tears
* Name: Tan Yong Ying
* School: NUS High School of Math & Science
* Class: M07106, M08206, M09304
* House: Faraday
Monday, December 29, 2008
@ 11:12 PM
Finally someone slapped me other than someone else. Am I supposed to be honoured?
I feel betrayed. But I did that to you, so it doesn't matter, does it.
I don't matter to you. I don't matter to anyone (except my dad, that I can totally be sure).
For the rest? What do you want me to build it on? Myself?
I can't have space for many. That sucks, doesn't it.
That space shrunk. Even more today too!
You know what?
If this is a way of letting me hate you, you've fucking succeeded. Now what can you get? Nothing. You always lived with nothing anyway, so it doens't matter too, does it?
It's not like I can help in anyway, yet I still bothered.
You don't need me, that I know. I was the wrong one, YET AGAIN, that I try to know.
Done with slapping me? Then screw off. Don't try to pull me into whatever crap you have. For one thing I am not in the same year as you or that person, I don't even know that person well, you expect me to stop my life completely for that?!
Other than in Math, certainty is bullshit. Very certain that it's positive? Think again. Someone out there is always making sure you have a hell of time.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Oreo cookies
@ 10:10 PM
With the way the world is in right now, I personally would like to use the word "peace" as a substitute for "impossible". Even impossibilities aren't that impossible, unlike peace. How screwed indeed.
I come in peace and oreo cookies. (?)
Betrayal everywhere. It doesn't matter how much trust you have, what matters is the impact of the fall.
All but two have shown me that more trust makes you fall harder. That's all.
At least oreo cookies are delicious both in and out, ok.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
@ 7:17 PM
WHY THE FUCK DO I DESERVE THIS?
LOLOL
@ 5:10 PM
J: That be me, you nub.
A: That be Amanda.
J: For some reason I fell asleep on the car when i saw [someone]'s smiling face in my mind. -.-
A: It must look so boring that your body immediately reacted by falling asleep. XD
J: LOLOL try telling [someone] that LOL.
It's damn funny I tell you.
Friday, December 26, 2008
So it is true
@ 8:58 PM
THAT JAY CHOU GOT A MERCEDES SLR722.
ARGH.
I WANT.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Class reshuffle?
@ 8:47 PM
More like entertainment lar.
The advantage of not knowing my class? I get the last laugh. Meanwhile I shall marvel at the various dramas we are getting in show for the next 2 years.
EDIT: Though I am not in 309 yet, I say that 309 is made up of 100% concentrated pwnage.
So there. :D
Friday, December 19, 2008
Hi.
@ 9:49 PM
I am in love with Bella's lullaby. It's so...beautiful. T.T
Friday, December 12, 2008
Boredom explains itself.
@ 7:40 PM
List 22 random songs. - Hardware Store--"Weird Al" Yankovic
- 路小雨--不能说的秘密(电影原声带)
- Toccata No.4 in D Minor, BWV 913--J.S. Bach
- By Myself Demo 2--Linkin Park
- 搁浅--周杰伦
- Avarice--Disturbed
- The Little Things Give You Away--Linkin Park
- I Don't Love You--My Chemical Romance
- No Roads Left--Linkin Park
- Gethsemane--Nightwish
- Falling--Staind
- 斗琴--不能说的秘密(电影原声带)
- Spotlight [Twilight Mix]--Twilight [Original Soundtrack]
- アントワネットブルー ～D・Gray-man Ending Ver.～--北出菜奈
- BWV 893 - Das Wolhtemperierte Clavier II - Prelude and Fugue No.24 in B minor--J.S. Bach
- Polonaise Op.40 No.1 in A major ("Military")--Chopin
- In The End--The String Quartet
- 园游会--周杰伦
- Vicinity of Obscenity--System of A Down
- Know--System of A Down
- Op.90, Piano Sonata no.27 in E minor, II. Nicht zu geschwind und sehr singbar vorzutragen--Beethoven
- Above The Winter Moonlight--Dragonforce
1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" you say? Ans: Hardware Store. Interesting. 2. How would you describe yourself? Ans: 路小雨 I am so NOT like her in the movie. -.- 3. What do you like in a guy/girl? Ans: Toccata No.4 in D Minor, BWV 913 Piano :D 4. How do you feel today? Ans: By Myself Demo 2 Not only today, hello. 5. What is your life's purpose? Ans: 搁浅 Purpose is to die? 6. What is your motto? Ans: Avarice "I'll savor, this anger My hate makes, me stronger" --> Awesome. 7. What do your friends think of you? Ans: The Little Things Give You Away How true. 8. What do you think of your parents? Ans: I Don't Love You What. The. Hell. 9. What do you think about very often? Ans: No Roads Left What. The. Hell. 10. What is 2 + 2? Ans: Gethsemane No sense whatsoever. Bye bye. 11. What do you think of your best friend? Ans: Falling You are NOT serious. 12. What do you think of the guy/girl you like? Ans: 斗琴 ...What. The. Hell. x 23875672 times 13. What is your life story? Ans: Spotlight [Twilight Mix] Unless it's Math, Chinese or running, no I don't want to be in the spotlight. 14. What do you want to be when you grow up? Ans: アントワネットブルー ～D・Gray-man Ending Ver.～ Let's just say it's blah, and leave it there, shall we? 15. What do you think of when you see the person you like? Ans: BWV 893 - Das Wolhtemperierte Clavier II - Prelude and Fugue No.24 in B minor Unbelievable. 16. What will you dance to at your wedding? Ans: Polonaise Op.40 No.1 in A major ("Military") I DO NOT WANT TO COMMENT ANYMORE. 17. What will they play at your funeral? Ans: In The End Thanks, I would love that song. 18. What is your hobby/interest? Ans: 园游会 Is there any in Singapore in the first place. 19. What is your biggest fear? Ans: Vicinity of Obscenity Eh? I swear and tell sick jokes like...a lot? 20. What is your biggest secret? Ans: Know Nice. 21. What do you think of your friends? Ans: Op.90, Piano Sonata no.27 in E minor, II. Nicht zu geschwind und sehr singbar vorzutragen Now every single person around me has become piano pieces?! 22. What will you post this as? Ans: Above The Winter Moonlight Cool.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
@ 9:01 AM
No one understands how I am dying. No one. There is no way I can trust anyone anymore.
I just want to find someone to trust myself on. No way. So foolish. So naive.
Of course, I wasn't worth the effort and time. Since when?
You don't want me hurt? You never mean it.
Or am I just turning more into my mum?
No one gets it, because no one gets the 'my mum' part. Even if I wish someone could help me, that someone is unavailable. I don't even think that someone will see my blog anymore.
You will not bother to console me anymore.
Who was the one who said last time, to call you if I need to?
Or perhaps, the hurt caused by you need NOT by healed by you? Are you pushing the responsibility of healing me to others?
Then might as well say you don't know me. Fine.
You hate me, don't you. I know I am a bitch. I know I am not worth it. Simply not.
So no matter how hard I try to read math, no matter how hard I try to get it, no matter how hard I supress myself from screaming at you for 9 days, it doesn't matter to anyone?
Fine.
I know I am not worth it. Stop your "not-saying-anything" fucking bullshit just to hide those words from me. Stupid, clumsy, fierece, violent, vulgar, useless, cheap, flirty. What else.
I am foolish lar.
You expect me to well, read research papers for 24/7 for the whole of the fucking school holidays? Fine.
Since you don't bother to console me anymore, fine. That means you will approve of me dying lar. You don't bother anyway, so it does not make a difference.
I hate myself.
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